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"Help us Create an Urban FoodForest Story inside th city"
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Houston, Texas, USA
50 - Female - Straight
Seeking: 18 - 98
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Personal Info
Relationship Seeking:
LTR, Friends, Travel Companion, Pen Pals, Just Curious, Other, Celibate Relationship, Celibate Marriage
Spoken Languages:
English
Marital Status:
Divorced
Spiritual Beliefs:
Conscious/Spiritual
Dietary Preference:
I eat anything
Drink?
I drink socially
Tobacco?
I don’t smoke
420 Friendly:
No marijuana for me
Often Exercise:
1-2 days/week
Energy Level:
Average
Education:
Some college
How Green?
Medium Green (mostly green lifestyle)
Political Views:
Prefer not to say
Have Children?
I have one child
Want Children?
Other
Living situation:
My kids live with me full-time
Willing to relocate:
No
Sun Sign:
Not sure
Rising Sign:
Not Sure
Moon Sign:
Not sure
Chinese Sign:
Not Sure
Ethnicity:
Other
Height:
5’0-5’3 (1.52 m - 1.62 m)
Body Type:
Slim/Slender
Ayurvedic Body Type:
Not sure
Weight:
Less than 100 lbs (45.45 kg)
Hair Color:
Brown
Hair Style:
Medium curly/wavy
Eye Color:
Brown eyes
Use eyewear?
Other
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Describe yourself (personality/attitude/passions/beliefs):
I am trying to find friendships for the family with spirits/souls who would also be willing to help us save our land and do our projects with us. ( the moderators do not want me to go into much, if any, detail because they want to avoid classified ads and would prefer i stick with what I am looking for in a romantic partner. - But see, that is exactly what I am looking for in a romantic partner:: Is the person who would actually be willing to help us with our dream! I can only be romanced by people are first and foremost a close friend to my whole family and i! Not just me.. you have to let us into my whole family into your life or none at all. Do not ask me be to separate from my family

Originally before 2026, I was looking for someone to outbid my neighbors out to buy my ex out and to help us do our dream to convert our family's property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis INSIDE a big city.

But sadly we lost that particular home...(Though It would be my dream to get that land back someday before I pass away..- one of the many top items on my bucket list you could say)..now if we can, we are hoping to save what little remains of our family's land, though for right now I ma a bit paralyzed by Moms dementia and my own struggle just to make ends meet until I can get more clients that are okay with my being on call with mom full time..sigh....

Sadly most folks on here only want to do this dream of ours OUTSIDE the city.

We are looking for the rare unicorn who would be up for the psychic and mental challenge it will take to create that kijd of symbiosis with nature INSIDE a big city.

So instead of leaving the city to find the healing of the spirit - to instead be up for the ultimate challenge of bringing a healing node of synergy right back INTO the city.

Creating a network of safe beautiful healing nodes WiTHIN the city. Starting with THIS city. Healing the cities from within.

A healing of the spirit from the inside out! ;)

But even if you would not be interested in that, perhaps there is still some way we can be of mutual help to one another.

I believe the universe put us in each other's pathway for a reason.

For a mutual exchange of energy in some form of another to help each other with each others dreams and goals!

Definitely any small way you would be willing to help make our dreams and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true would be appreciated.. Even if it is something small way by telling folks about us or about our various media projects? Or by letting us offer to you one of our services..? Or finding some way we can be of service to you from our beautiful little teeny tiny little urban home. (Keep in mind Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder, so even though its beautiful to us - it might take you a change in perspective to see the beauty of both our ideas and our place. We are an acquired taste that takes time to learn the true beauty of ;)

Letting us and allowing us and helping us to convert our family's special little urban vortex spaces into a place that we dream about - these very special tiny spots on this earth where individuals can come together to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and being within a City - all at the same time ....

showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city. -

on these very special spots of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)

(By the way, i am amazed how many folks keep missing this very important detail ->>>
- ->>>> What we wish to accomplish can only be done from WITHIN a city..


My personal mantra is: 
These is our krineteagle's ABC's
Appreciate adventure, Allow awareness,
Acceptcept Awe and every variation of all of these
Breathe beauty, Be balanced
Choose Celebration
& compassionate centering
With many different variations in between...

The all powerful AND ..
..

Describe the type of person you'd like to meet: 
inner wisdom

Half joking/half serious the kind of people is like to meet are clients .. bc in my world, good friends would be good clients if they could afford it and good clients also would be the best of friends with us . And these days, I think I am starting to believe that the person I am most likely to fall in love with and open myself up to would most likely be a soul who has been willing to be financially kind to my family. Its just something Ive started to notice about myself that those folks who have cared about our financial survival and freedom to do our dream seems to be the folks I am far more okay with giving up my precious resting time for... These days I am so exhausted by Moms dementia and the loss of our home, that I find it exhausting to be around people who just want my family's time and energy for nothing in return.. but that those who offer us even the tiniest bit of mental freedom with small tokens of being able to help support ourselves..those friends who want us to be able to have that sort of financial freedom with no strings attached - those are the friends who I tend to label as utterly priceless and to be taken are of.....

In some magical fantasy dream world, yes sure we would love for you to have the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.., sure that's be nice......

Buttttt my family & i also wish to find souls that we can help out in our own small way from way over here in our own little mini world.

I hope you will let us encourage you in your own dream and get to stay friends with you over the years... :)

I believe we were put across each other's pathway for a reason.

That we were meant to help each other out in some way or another.

yes sure, we want to save our family's land & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects

but our family as a family unit likes to be allowed to help others to heal and feel safe as well...

We believe in inner wisdom & patience. We believe in communication & empathy & active listening & body listening

We want to be allowed to use our skills and knowledge to be of service to you

Do you ever feel like you just need to mentally hugged and loved, even if you are not being hugged physically?

It may be awhile before I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again to hug people in person again, but mentally hugs are amazing as well!

Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with.. and where I know we can mutually be of help to one another.

People we can trust to help us keep our dreams safe, who will accept us and love us as we are!,who will encourage us to do our projects, Who will reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning.

And who will let us help them in exchange for helping us in some of the ways we need help with as well.

A mutual exchange of help in each other's goals.

Describe the ideal relationship: 
ideally, I want a relationship with a person who would actually be willing to help us to fund and or do our projects,

But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content with just letting us help them in some way

- especially if you would be willing to value our company and our dialogue enough to help us out in some of the small ways we ask for help with...

Ideally you wouldnt need me to be connected in a sexual way.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you?

Frankly I will be honest, i would prefer friends who would also be willing to be one of our holistic 'clients' as well who would be okay with helping us financially or with services in exchange for our own cheering you and helping you with your own goals

ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime, I really do need you to just be happy with my whole family unit just being a special friend to you

admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..

But it would need to be with someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property
Recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as single whole unit as well.

That we are all parts of a whole.

..

What are your relationship dealbreakers? 
Ooooh I love this question bc over the years I've been learning about myself and come to realize I actually do have some dealbreakers

Dealbreaker 1)
Impatience, judgements, demands
- when people act impatiently with myself or with any members of my family, that tends to deter me from encouraging continued connection. My mother and I are extra slow and we will push your patience levels to its max.
- we have a rebellious nature and our instinct is to rebel when people make bossy or demanding or coercive requests
Although short term we are willing to put up with a lot, we don't tend to encourage folka if they are constantly in impatience or non-accepting or non-allowing with any of us.

Dealbreaker 2 - any requests for me to spend time with them without my family around. If that is a requirement, keep searching. Even if I am willing, the idea of that being requested I find offensive. I do not enjoy people's company if I am not being allowed to share it with my family. You might be enjoying having me to yourself , but I won't enjoy it.

If you want me to enjoy your company, my family has to be allowed to be around.

Maybe after a few YEARS of your being a close friend of the family, I might become more comfortable to be around you without them around, but I haven't found anyone that I've enjoyed more then my family yet ..and I ma not likely to bx the very request leaves me not comfortable around people - so please , don't even ask.

If you want me to feel comfortable with you, have it where the family loves you so much that I just becoming so accustomed to you that I don't think twice about your being around.

Dealbreaker 3)
anyone who requires sex with me

Dealbreaker 4)
not allowing us to have a digital back up memory so if you afraid of anything about you being digitally remembered, we would not be a good match

Dealbreaker 5)
anybody shouting verbally abusively or physically abusive statements. Any guilt trips about our being who and how we are. Any berating of us for the parts about us that are inconvenient to you. Any requirements for us to be different or better ...if that is what you need,.then please please find someone else please.

Thank you


..

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What should a great date consist of? 

Spendin time with you and my family in the garden

discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history

and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another

An topic that comes into being.

Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?

Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being
..

What do you like to do for fun/activities? 

video, plant edible plants in my own garden, listening to my son converse with people, sharing life with my familly, eating yummy organic/sustainable meals, watching documentaries/films with my family, curling up with my family

..
What is something you've learned about yourself from a relationship? 

It turns out i am actually picky about how I want to be allowed to live life


..
Share something unusual or extra special about yourself: 
i video / take pictures of well, everything... all of life.. esp if it involves a transition or change of any kind... we also live in symbiosis with the tech to create a synthetic back up memory to our limited human memory banks. (this is a problem for some people, so you will need to be comfortable with this if you want to be around us. Especially after mom started developing memory issues, we have found it extrememly useful but even before kiddo and I found it extremely useful should there ever be even the mildest of conflicts, and it also has allowed for incredible insight in active listening & perspective learning.

Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.

i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))

i have been body listening my whole life


important - why do we want to do what we want to do INSiDE our city? Read this below:

btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique:

most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. TAHT is NOT US!

we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city.

Our need, drive, ambition, desire, what we care about : is to save our own home that we live in (any help towards this miracle would be much appreciated by friends and strangers alike..)

eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well - this would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of our town/city in Houston! Yes we know its Texas, but Texas has a lot of beauty in it.

Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.

But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.

Instead,
We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. This land. The land that we have a history and story with.

That is the land that holds an emotional meaning to us.

I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..

and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.

it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "

I have now explained why this land and not some other. - - It isn't about ease. or having more. - - it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,

and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.

For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.

now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .

We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.

I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!

Even if it's just be being a friend,

or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey

ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..

like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.

final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...

And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.

When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......


Describe your work/business and what it means to you: 
right now my job mostly consists of caring for elderly mom and raising a homeschooling teenager, while trying to keep our lives afloat until we are ready to go forward in create an online prescence to share ideas we would like to encourage being shared...

ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city

Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga 

Sunday, June 7, 2026

our family's dealbreakers

What are your relationship dealbreakers? 
Ooooh I love this question bc over the years I've been learning about myself and come to realize I actually do have some dealbreakers

Dealbreaker 1)
Impatience, judgements, demands
- when people act impatiently with myself or with any members of my family, that tends to deter me from encouraging continued connection. My mother and I are extra slow and we will push your patience levels to its max.
- we have a rebellious nature and our instinct is to rebel when people make bossy or demanding or coercive requests
Although short term we are willing to put up with a lot, we don't tend to encourage folka if they are constantly in impatience or non-accepting or non-allowing with any of us.

Dealbreaker 2 - any requests for me to spend time with them without my family around. If that is a requirement, keep searching. Even if I am willing, the idea of that being requested I find offensive. I do not enjoy people's company if I am not being allowed to share it with my family. You might be enjoying having me to yourself , but I won't enjoy it.

If you want me to enjoy your company, my family has to be allowed to be around.

Maybe after a few YEARS of your being a close friend of the family, I might become more comfortable to be around you without them around, but I haven't found anyone that I've enjoyed more then my family yet ..and I ma not likely to bx the very request leaves me not comfortable around people - so please , don't even ask.

If you want me to feel comfortable with you, have it where the family loves you so much that I just becoming so accustomed to you that I don't think twice about your being around.

Dealbreaker 3)
anyone who requires sex with me

Dealbreaker 4)
not allowing us to have a digital back up memory so if you afraid of anything about you being digitally remembered, we would not be a good match

Dealbreaker 5)
anybody shouting verbally abusively or physically abusive statements. Any guilt trips about our being who and how we are. Any berating of us for the parts about us that are inconvenient to you. Any requirements for us to be different or better ...if that is what you need,.then please please find someone else please.

Thank you

what we wish for in other people June 2026

dating profile for krineteagle 2026

gardendreamer

"Help us Create an Urban FoodForest Story inside th city"
Houston, Texas, USA
50 - Female - Straight
Seeking: 18 - 98

My Profile

Relationship Seeking:
LTR, Friends, Travel Companion, Pen Pals, Just Curious, Other, Celibate Relationship, Celibate Marriage
Spoken Languages:
English
Marital Status:
Divorced
Spiritual Beliefs:
Conscious/Spiritual
Dietary Preference:
I eat anything
Drink?
I drink socially
Tobacco?
I don’t smoke
420 Friendly:
No marijuana for me
Often Exercise:
1-2 days/week
Energy Level:
Average
Education:
Some college
How Green?
Medium Green (mostly green lifestyle)
Political Views:
Prefer not to say
Have Children?
I have one child
Want Children?
Other
Living situation:
My kids live with me full-time
Willing to relocate:
No
Sun Sign:
Not sure
Rising Sign:
Not Sure
Moon Sign:
Not sure
Chinese Sign:
Not Sure
Ethnicity:
Other
Height:
5’0-5’3 (1.52 m - 1.62 m)
Body Type:
Slim/Slender
Ayurvedic Body Type:
Not sure
Weight:
Less than 100 lbs (45.45 kg)
Hair Color:
Brown
Hair Style:
Medium curly/wavy
Eye Color:
Brown eyes
Use eyewear?
Other

More Depth

   
Describe yourself (personality/attitude/passions/beliefs):
I am trying to find friendships for the family with spirits/souls who would also be willing to help us save our land and do our projects with us. ( the moderators do not want me to go into much, if any, detail because they want to avoid classified ads and would prefer i stick with what I am looking for in a romantic partner. - But see, that is exactly what I am looking for in a romantic partner:: Is the person who would actually be willing to help us with our dream! I can only be romanced by people are first and foremost a close friend to my whole family and i! Not just me.. you have to let us into my whole family into your life or none at all. Do not ask me be to separate from my family

Originally before 2026, I was looking for someone ro outbid my neighbors out to buy my ex out and to help us do our dream to convert our family's property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis INSIDE a big city. But sadly we lost that home...

Sadly most folks on here only want to do this OUTSIDE the city. We are looking for the rare unicorn who would be up for the psychic and mental challenge it will take to create that kijd of symbiosis with nature INSIDE a big city. So instead of leaving the city to find the healing of the spirit - to instead be up for the ultimate challenge of bringing a healing node of synergy right back INTO the city. Creating a network of safe beautiful healing nodes WiTHIN the city. Healing the cities from within.

A healing of the spirit from the inside out! ;)

But even if you would not be interested in that, perhaps there is still some way we can be of mutual help to one another.

I believe the universe put us in each other's pathway for a reason.

For a mutual exchange of energy in some form of another to help each other with each others dreams and goals!

Definitely any small way you would be willing to help make our dreams and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true would be appreciated.. Even if it is something small way by telling folks about us or about our various media projects? Or by letting us offer to you one of our services..? Or finding some way we can be of service to you from our beautiful little teeny tiny little urban home. (Keep in mind Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder, so even though its beautiful to us - it might take you a change in perspective to see the beauty of both our ideas and our place. We are an acquired taste that takes time to learn the true beauty of ;)

Letting us and allowing us and helping us to convert our family's special little urban vortex spaces into a place that we dream about - this very special tiny spot on this earth where individuals can come together to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and the City all at the same time ....

showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city. - on this very special spot of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)

(By the way, i am amazed how many folks keep missing this very important detail.. What we wish to accomplish can only be done from WITHIN a city.. A teaching and healing showing folks how to connect and become in ymbiosis with nature even INSIDE a city. Showing HOW it can be done from even from within.

Showing how in so many ways, its like a metaphor for how to find peace and healing and connection even from within our own human chaos! Yummmmmmmmmmmpurrrrrrrr... grin...

Ideally maybe we would get to share some of our videos that we take of everything along the way, maybe teaching & inspiring others along the way through various media and art forms...?

That is the exact relationship I want.. that is the type of people I want in our lives: Folks who will let us help them - who will in return help us with our own dreams in whatever small way that they can.

and allow for us to do this..

Although I do wish I could be friends with so many people on here (if they would allow for us to be so),

unfortunately, if we are talking only romance and not just friendship, then from a romantic standpoint you would need to be willing to help us to achieve our dream for our very particular piece of land that means so extremely much to our little family. You wouldnt need to have to live with us (we are difficult to live with). - Just be willing to be someone who maybe shares some of our values or who wants to help encourage and support this dream.

Sharing a connection to us.

so we can stop feeling quite so alone in our endeavors - which sadly we often do since most people want us to do this dream somewhere else, outside the city.,or at their place...

But we seek people who will allow us to do our dream HERE, please!

here, in this city, on this land that has the story of my family are deeply connected to.

we really need folks who will actively cheer us on and help make our vision a reality please please please.

Please Let us help you and in return if you could help us as well.

....


Something i have found emphasized on many other folks profiles is their connection to their spiritual journey and hopes of finding someone who will share in that experience with them.

Upon rereading my own profile, i realized how much of our own spiritual journey was left out of our description of ourselves for others to know where we stood on such matters.

So i added an extra paragraph at the end discussing some of my own personal journey.

But to use one of kiddos favorite concepts taken from a movie he loved when he was little (Dr. Strange), I think our philosophy can be summed up in that.. of how "each part of understanding is all but a small understanding of the whole... "

And we all share in coming together to criss cross our paths and journeys to weave together to make that whole. And together the tapestry grows and changes shape..

Together the music evolves and is experienced at mutliple levels and dimension.

It is not just the two of us..but the ALL of us combined.

something I do try to emphasize to my son, is how each of us brings new insights and wisdoms to the table..

There is always something to learn from the other. There is always new insight and wisdom to be gained and beauty and truths to be see from each interaction and each experience and each observation.

May we be able to recognize in each other what the other brings...

...


Important: my family (my son and mother) mean the world to me, plus the dream we have to help find a way to save our family's property, all while hoping to promote and encourage us all each helping each other and others to feel safe and create a world of compassionate inter-harmony

Note because this is important - in all that I do in life- i do try to share all of what I experience and learn in life with my family.

Ie. Whatever ideas and thoughts you share with me, I will wish to share with them. This bothers some people who only want to share their thoughts only with me, but it is important to me that I be allowed to share every thought with them as well..

I am but a small part of a bigger whole (my little family).. and our little family is bit a part of an even bigger whole that includes you and all the world that exists.

...

Hmm.. A flaw of mine: I can be a bit rebellious at times? though I do try to aim to do so in a positive way.

In an ideal world we would like to be accepting and appreciate of all people , but I admit I do have a small desire to surround our beings with other accepting & appreciative people who actually accept & appreciate us & our family the way we are,

Please be accepting of others the way they are.

We are very passionate about our hopes!
Our family's hope is
1) share life with each other,
2) to be able to document the lessons we learn life with our audio recordings of our conversations, our videos of the transformations and with kiddo's photographs,
and to communicate, & share all that we learn as we learn it so that others might also share in the journey some day
3) to practice as close to zero waste as we are comfortable with, and
4) finding ways to embark on our projects hopefully in a way thay will help us to save & transform our family's property into a regenerative symbiotic harmonious little archeological food forest oasis that will both keep our little family's story alive for generations to come but which will also teach and help others along the way, we hope..
Which will hopefully inspire others and leave them feel connected to us.

(We want someone who share our values and who will help us do this vision on THIS little spot on the earth which we are deeply connected to and where we get so much of our strength from. (Not another spot somewhere else..but HERE where I am connected to the land and the story behind it)

So if you or if you know anyone else who might be interested in being connected to our family in this way - please please please let us know, please! We are desperate to find this person who will help us with our dream.

Which we would pay back as the vision we have for the home unfolds and starts to become sustainable....and hopefully even regenerative! :D

- our hope : that our family's connection to you and this little spot on the earth should one day give back to the world with it's story and lessons we have learned and with the inspirations we come across over the years

It is a very tiny tiny tiny tiny piece of the world, but no matter how small it is, we believe if you and I learn to coexist with the world the way it is, then the world will gives back and provide ever so much more in quite a symbiotic harmonious way?

We firmly believe in Permaculture's Three Principles: Human Care, Earth Care, Future care ..

We also believe in Zero Waste if possible, and we now keep that in mind when we buy anything now.

We also firmly believe that our family's story is a very special story is truly worth saving. And we would like to combine our story with your own story.. but to do that here..

we have this goal to make both the palace we are connected to and our lives to be all turned into a teaching way of being... of how to practice living with nature right here where we are..and to each other and ourselves in a harmonious co-symbiotic regenerative way... Despite our being in a city - but showing the world that even inside a city one can find little spot of peacefulness to rejuvenate in.

We want to creat with you a small city space right where we are with an edible food forest oasis that we can harvest from to help feed both ourselves and the nearby neighborhood,

It has been a strange existential journey trying to finding funding/resources/and backers who would be ready to help to help do this. Lots of nibbles but now we need to make it actually happen somehow.

But

We have appreciated all the kindness and support that we have come across to try to accomplish this goal in the way we envision.

I admit I am less interested in a sexual partner as everyone else is (as I tend to be a bit asexual despite how much I once upon a time used to love sensuality) , but I have also started to give up hope of finding someone willing to help us on our journey just to helps us..

So i have come to accept that you will eventually need for this all to evolve into a more intimate relationship over time., But I admit I do fear your making that a requirement...., When I am ready, I will open up and bloom for someone again, but my first priority right now is to feel our dream and our main hope and goal is life will be kept safe,please .

But yes, I am looking for a deep connection with whomever helps us on our journey and our dreams.

Maybe one day our little family project will expand outwards into becoming a little non-profit that helps to convert other similar lots into edible healing oasi for others to heal in if all goes well,

But for now , I long for the friends who will help us to open our hearts and our beings to the universe.

I am looking for that special someone who will help me save this spot of the world that holds so much meaning to me and who will help me to convert them into the vision we have for them,

They say who we seek is seeking us. Please person, please find us.

Please help us to create a little world with a mini foodforest/edible oasis/regenerative feel to it - with the space that holds so much meaning to me personally please.

Be a part of the evolving learning we are doing.

Btw, We hope to document our live in hopes to that maybe it will help other to learn on their own journey all that we have wanted to learn .. so please be okay with us recording the whole process of our evolution.

Maybe share our journey learning about communication/empathy/conflict resolution

We love edible flowers in our yard, and enjoy sharing our food garden. (Maybe you can find us by 'hopingforagarden'? We would love at least that teeny tiny bit of connection with you, if you allowed it? Wistful sigh of hope...

We photograph and video the world as our way of functioning and breathing, and always have a camera with us - it is our breathing tool to make it through each moment and to be able to function.

NVC (nonviolent communication) Active Listening and Empathy skills

We do not throw things away, but find ways to save things for art projects.

When the time is right, and when the funds are available, a shed/storage place will be built offsite to store items for easier access for both me and other artists to use the material.

By the way, we know this bothers some people, but i treat my kid as an equal partner in all these ventures, (always have ever since he since the beginning) since even though he is still a kid or more not quite yet adult status, when it comes to these ventures, I am his equal in learning. we learn from each other.

And I do not want anyone discriminating against him or treating him lesser because of his age, sex, race, or ANY stereotype.

If anything ever happens to us, we hope this project will continue & help others in its story.

We try to be openminded and accepting and appreciative of others and eager to learn from and share what we have learned.

and eager to find others who will be open to encouraging us to pursue & acccomplish these dreams & goals for wanting to use our own land to help to create these harmonious symbiotic relationships with the many worlds around us. :)
Describe the type of person you'd like to meet:
 
inner wisdom

In a dream world, yes sure we would love for you to have the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.

But my family and i also wish to find souls that we can help out in our own small way from over here.

I believe we were put across each other's pathway for a reason.

That we were meant to help each other out in some way or another.

yes sure, we want to save our home & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects

but our family as a family unit likes to be allowed to help others to heal and feel safe as well...

We believe in inner wisdom & patience. We believe in communication & empathy & active listening & body listening

We want to be allowed to use our skills and knowledge to be of service to you

Do you ever feel like you just need to mentally hugged and loved, even if you are not being hugged physically?

It may be awhile before I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again to hug people in person again, but mentally hugs are amazing as well!

Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with.. and where I know we can mutually be of help to one another.

People we can trust to help us keep our dreams safe, who will accept us and love us as we are!,who will encourage us to do our projects, Who will reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning.

And who will let us help them in exchange for helping us in some of the ways we need help with as well.

A mutual exchange of help in each other's goals.

Describe the ideal relationship:
 
ideally, I want a relationship with a person who would actually be willing to help us to fund and or do our projects,

But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content with just letting us help them in some way

- especially if you would be willing to value our company and our dialogue enough to help us out in some of the small ways we ask for help with...

Ideally you wouldnt need me to be connected in a sexual way.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you?

Frankly I will be honest, i would prefer friends who would also be willing to be one of our holistic 'clients' as well who would be okay with helping us financially or with services in exchange for our own cheering you and helping you with your own goals

ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime, I really do need you to just be happy with my whole family unit just being a special friend to you

admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..

But it would need to be with someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property
Recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as single whole unit as well.

That we are all parts of a whole.
What are your relationship dealbreakers?
 
Ooooh I love this question bc over the years I've been learning about myself and come to realize I actually do have some dealbreakers

Dealbreaker 1)
Impatience, judgements, demands
- when people act impatiently with myself or with any members of my family, that tends to deter me from encouraging continued connection. My mother and I are extra slow and we will push your patience levels to its max.
- we have a rebellious nature and our instinct is to rebel when people make bossy or demanding or coercive requests
Although short term we are willing to put up with a lot, we don't tend to encourage folka if they are constantly in impatience or non-accepting or non-allowing with any of us.

Dealbreaker 2 - any requests for me to spend time with them without my family around. If that is a requirement, keep searching. Even if I am willing, the idea of that being requested I find offensive. I do not enjoy people's company if I am not being allowed to share it with my family. You might be having you to myself , but I won't enjoy it. If you want me to enjoy your company, my family has to be allowed to be around. Maybe after a few YEARS of your being a close friend of the family I might become more comfortable to be around you without them around, but I haven't found anyone that I've enjoyed more then my family yet so please don't even ask. If you want me to feel comfortable with you, have it where they family loves you so much that I just becoming so accustomed to you that I don't think twice about your being around.

Dealbreaker 3)anyone who requires sex with me

Dealbreaker 4) not allowing us to have a digital back up memory so if you afraid of anything about you being digitally remembered, we would not be a good match

Dealbreaker 5) anybody shouting verbally abusively or physically abusive statements. Any guilt trips about our being who and how we are. Any berating of us for the parts about us that are inconvenient to you. Any requirements for us to be different or better ...if that is what you need,.then please please find someone else please.

Thank you




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What should a great date consist of?
 
Spendin time with you and my family in the garden

discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history

and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another

An topic that comes into being.

Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?

Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being

What do you like to do for fun/activities?
 
video, plant edible plants in my own garden, listening to my son converse with people, sharing life with my familly, eating yummy organic/sustainable meals, watching documentaries/films with my family, curling up with my family
Share something unusual or extra special about yourself:
 
i video / take pictures of well, everything... all of life.. esp if it involves a transition or change of any kind... we also live in symbiosis with the tech to create a synthetic back up memory to our limited human memory banks. (this is a problem for some people, so you will need to be comfortable with this if you want to be around us. Especially after mom started developing memory issues, we have found it extrememly useful but even before kiddo and I found it extremely useful should there ever be even the mildest of conflicts, and it also has allowed for incredible insight in active listening & perspective learning.

Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.

i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))

i have been body listening my whole life


important - why do we want to do what we want to do INSiDE our city? Read this below:

btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique:

most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. TAHT is NOT US!

we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city.

Our need, drive, ambition, desire, what we care about : is to save our own home that we live in (any help towards this miracle would be much appreciated by friends and strangers alike..)

eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well - this would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of our town/city in Houston! Yes we know its Texas, but Texas has a lot of beauty in it.

Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.

But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.

Instead,
We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. This land. The land that we have a history and story with.

That is the land that holds an emotional meaning to us.

I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..

and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.

it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "

I have now explained why this land and not some other. - - It isn't about ease. or having more. - - it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,

and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.

For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.

now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .

We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.

I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!

Even if it's just be being a friend,

or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey

ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..

like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.

final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...

And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.

When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......


Describe your work/business and what it means to you:
 
right now my job mostly consists of caring for elderly mom and raising a homeschooling teenager, while trying to keep our lives afloat until we are ready to go forward in create an online prescence to share ideas we would like to encourage being shared...

ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city

Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga space or small event teaching space or where artists,writers, body practitioners, small music groups could rent out?

ideally we would make podcasts and do more with sharing our journey on youtube though currently we are not quite ready to go full force just yet on that.

not sure if we are allowed to share our links, but if you contact us, there is a lovely little link to a small sharing of a conversation we made several years ago when kiddo was little on the topic of empathy that I love to share..
Or if we could share the other video experiments we made and wanted to share, we would be very honored to be allowed to share it with you.
What does being *conscious* mean to you?
 
being aware of one's body and one's emotions and why you think a certain way and being aware of the people around you, their emotions, and why they think the way they do, being aware of the plants/life forces/life all around you,
How long and what motivated you to be on a conscious path?
 
a buddhist father, a mother who loves gardening, my son, every darn event and experience in our lives...
How are you environmentally conscious & what are you doing to help the planet?
 
attempting to practice a form of zero waste, composting, attempting to teach others about more environmentally harmonious ways of living, ,trying to convert our garden into a mostly edible and sustainable garden, though i mostly only work with 'exotic'gereen since I seem to kind of not know how to do regular vegetables :/, sigh
What types of healing modalities do you practice or would you like to learn?
 
body listening: mostly shoulders and back. (similar to a combination of reiki, rosenmethod, tui nai, jin shin, trigger, passive joint movement, swedish, deep tissue, shiatsu, active listening, )
would love to learn more about conflict transformation, active listening, empathy, mediating, and other massage styles, interested in all forms of healing and listening.
What "imperfections" are you embracing or changing?
 
I am trying to learn more patience with myself and others when they are feeling impatient,
Trying to be more allowing and forgiving when other people wante to be different than I am,
tolerance for others being the way they are when it interferes with our dreams and hopes
and to have a sense of humor about people, my family, and the world...
What types of books/authors do you enjoy and why?
 
Books on communication, self awareness, leadership, conflict transformation, food forests, regenerative practices, fantasy, sci-fi,
What/who are some of your favorite movies/shows/actors/influencers?
 
long list
What kind of music moves you?
 
early baroque, jazz, linda sterling, harp, synth, blues, 80's, red priest, russian classicals, musicals-gershwin, gypsy kings, long list..
What are you most passionate about?
 
1)being able to be with my family, 2)recording & documenting as much of life as I possibly can,
3)communication, 4) saving my home and our family's story, 5)edible gardening, 6)zero-waste
What is the top priority in your life right now?
 
1st : being allowed to be with my mom &son,
2nd : documenting and recording everything in our life so that the information is used and stored by some AI somewhere
3rd: saving what remains of our family's urban pieces of land
and
4th: sharing our online project ideas with hopes that it will reach and inspire others in some small way with us sharing who we are as we are as we evolve and learn and grow ever so slowly and hopefully with your connection to us as well.
Where do you see yourself 5 years from today?
 
after saving & transforming the properties with vision we have for it,
maybe learning a few languages and maybe traveling some with and documenting those travels?
What type of travel do you enjoy?
 
ALL -+ but ONLY if we have a working camera with enough battery and storage space to video and record the entirety of it all.

2021 update: I also will not be doing any travelling until after we have saved our family's propety and it is safely in a trust so that should anything happen to us on our travels, it will be ensured that the project will continue on without us. feel free to ask to see a draft of the project we would like to work on for our properties once we get the funds to accomplish it.
Describe your ideal honeymoon:
 
depends on many factors
What kind of pets do you have? (Names)?
 
officially: one queen indoor/outdoor cat,
unofficially outside there are two opossums (well at least the opossums seem to be living off of our land)(though 2021 update, now it seems to be raccoons that took over no longer the oppossums), a thousand squirrels (actually that would be interesting to count to see how many there are actually are), periodically some bluejays when they migrate through, a couple of cardinals live outside, a few rockdoves, and a family of determined mocking birds who take all the grapes and mulberries each year, a gazillion snails and the lizards and garden snakes that eat them.
okay, none of them are pets.. they just all coexist with us.

Update 2022 - we also now have a little half blind probably quite old little chihuahua co-existing with us who has added a new dynamic to our lives
Do you support any charitable organizations?
 
IF I had the money, there are several educators on Patreon whom I would support and the Inga Foundation, Geoff Lawton's Permaculture Institute, Dan Barber's Work, other land regenerative projects.
What makes you smile?
 
Kiddo, mom & I sharing events together.
Yummy meals,
When somebody lets me splurge on edible plants
When my family is together
When I am not worried about money or making our dreams come true
When I feel able to share our world with others
Is there anything else you'd like to share?
 

I wish I could share with you some of the links we like to share neat insights and thoughts on.

Even if you dont think we would be a good match, I hope you will still allow us to be connected even just as acquaintances or as friends..

We are all always connected, but it would be nice to also be allowed to share views and thoughts & learn from you even off this site.

what would you like most?
 
I know on here I should have some spiritual answer

but that is ever ongoing journey that involves our whole entire lives

Right now this particular year,

what I would like most is unfortunately very worldy. to find a relationship with someone who actually wants to help us to save our family's home so we can create on it the vision we envision --This is the the first priority in a relationship we seek .. you must be willing to help us with OUR dream.
Sorry if that makes me seem like a narcissist or selfish but I need someone who cares about our dream please...and who wants to help us make it happen. That is the kind of person I truly need in our life right now.

I need someone who cares about helping us to achieve our dreams to turn our home and our garden turns into an edible oasis where artists and bodymind teachers and writers and other souls from around the world can come visit and rejuvenate in.

You need to be willing to help me & my son with our goals.

After that,maybe some help us save the rest of our family's dreams & transforming all the spaces we wish to change into an edible oasis (i will be honest, the whole vision includes shaping many places into places that would be giving back in abundance both passively through all the teaching mediums as we share what we are working on and teach others in the city)

Another thing we would like most is to Be connected to other folks who also encourage edible gardening, body listening, and even just simple awareness and kindness and patience and compassion and an allowing and encouraging of the world to be an interconnected rejuvenating safe place to coexist in.

-Being allowed to documenting our family's design journeys. -

I don't know if they will let me keep these FAQ but they seem to be important to anyone who is consider a relationship with us.

FAQ: in total, how much land do I want to transform : as little as it sounds, even there are different pieces of it, all together it is only about an acre. But our home which is the highest priority right now.. it is only a quarter of an acre. -- Remember this is INSIDE a city.

Next FAQ:
why not sell and buy land outside the city...? Several reasons.... One bc we want to show that this CAN be done INSIDE the city. We have actually seen different variations ofour dream/vision inside different cities, but we have our own variation we would like to do.

Also. Bc the whole of the pieces tell a story, our familys story.. And we would like to share the evolution of that story. And we would like for you to be a part of that story, please.


There is a blog called envisioningourgoals dot blogspot that answers tons of questions and talks about various obstacles we need help with.. though i am not sure how findable it is without the link. So you will have to write to us to get the link.

We hope you will choose to have a relationship with us, even if it is just as a supportibe friend

But even more so, we hope you will share our dream with us on an intimate level.

Note: intimate does not necessarily mean sexual.. it means on mental, emotional, psychic level .
what I would love to have you ask about
 
I know many on here are opposed to social media but do you know of a better way to reach folks who might not otherwise have a way to be exposed to new and interesting ideas or perspectives?
We would like to someday inspire- and that medium exists and allows for an interconnected tapestry of perspectives and ideas so wanted to be a part of that sharing of ideas and thoughts into the medium of souls.
I forgot I was not allowed to post any links to any of our online projects that talk about our journey, so they were taken down, but I would love it if you asked about them.

My son and I started have experimented and over the years created various different youtube channels experiments nd a few facebook pages to share the different aspects of our journey and facsinating evolution & creation of ideas with other in hopes of inspiring others..

from our gardening/cooking journey, to our bodylisteningawarness journey,
to our overall homeschooling/life/learning journey.

We even have a couple of twitter pages that we rarely post on but they exist for those who like that medium..

and even have a Patreon page and makesupport page which I do hope you will ask about, both with links to most of it in hopes of sharing our creations.. .

All in hopes of creating our own large interweaving network & connection to the soul & spirits that interconnects with other peoples networks and their own webs helping to interconnect the world into a beautiful synergistic tapestry of harmonious or intweaving interconnections... or something like that,

bit of amused laughter at our strange journey.

much love being sent out to you.. I am grateful for our connection to you..

Thank you!!!
Spiritual History
 
Grew up with a Buddhist Father, (who had once had our living room be a Meditation Hall with only pillows amd one rocking chair as furniture)

As a child, on the weekend he would take me to many different meditation halls and let me hold theoretical conversations with the different head monks of each place while he interacted with them.

One of my most profound moments and first enlightenment experiences was sitting on a snow bank next to a hot spring meditating & communing with nature outside as a 4 year old while my family sat inside meditating all day long. (At four, i found being inside a hall not quite as connecting as being outside in nature) ..

Since then I have had four other just as equally profound moments of wholeness and connection to something beyond itself and many smaller moments though just as profound in their own way.

Let's see what else, random bits... In college , I took several religious studies classes on Buddhism.

Around 21, I had some events occur which brought me to an Eastern Orthodox commune up in Alaska,where a priest who had studied both Zen Buddhism and Eastern Orthodoxy was staying at. On the second night there, he stayed up all night to translate vocabulary so I could discuss Buddhist ideas with the Orthodox terminology that was used at that commune

While up there in Alaska, the adventure continued on after the commune to a fishing boat which took me to Kodiak -- where I had many many many even more profound spiritual moments while living "homeless" on that island.

From the first night homeless , to a later morning i "woke up realizing the profoundness of our journey of being in Alaska at all and the beauty of the journey that had brought us there, after staying up all night on a illegal island,

to the beautiful experiences I had living for a week with a small handful of nuns on a different moss covered island that was off the main travel paths,

Although I may not seem as spiritual as some bc I dont seem to emphasize that part of the journey outwardly... Inwardly it is still important part even as we have been focusing now on saving my family's property..

The journey does still continue even while we try to do this.

Though probably from a different angle now

- both as a single mother interacting with a very old soul coping with being in a new life (ie . when kiddo was 3, instead it felt like i was an interacting with a 3000 year old sage in a 3 yr old body and even as he has gotten older it has been about helping him come to terms with the limitations of the world around him when he gets frustrated or confused of why it doesnt it have all the same understandings that he has)

Mixing that all in and combining it all with all the new 'disabilities' I now have....

And mixing that with the existential quandaries that watching a parent go through dimensia up close can do..
(It is nonstop grief and recogniztion of the frailty of the human mind with a soul deep underneath it all)

The journey has only gotten more profound, interesting and insightful....

From the twilight zone experience of how our my ex left after 20 years changing all that we knew about people and life...

To the world experiencing covid and the changes around us it made

to our own expereinces caring for my mother confronting and learning more about myself and why certain parts of me existed..

To raising a child who was so different and unique who became the teacher ..
... where i had to "unlearn" all the myths and theories about how children were "supposed to be"....

To the journey of trying to figure out how to find someone who will help or share our dream to save this place to use it as a place to continue to teach and awaken....


Learning a spiritual journey that includes it all..

Trying to stay connected to the wisdom of patience and the beauty of the journey along the way.











Bodymind Listening
 
When I was a little girl, I could not hear music without dances being constantly choreographed in my head. Dance was my expression, my way of being.

Then some events occured .. and my mind became paralyzed with that world only sneaking through to me at brief random moments...

Also starting from before I can remember, though dad used to say even as young as two, the way I connected to folks was different.. through touch, hearing their minds through muscles and people's body language ... When I placed my hand on someone's back I heard people on a totally different level then words.. I "heard" the movement the conversations of their muscles. I processed it as a sort of sound only without sound but it might as well have been sound.

For years, I never charged people for this touch bc it was my way of connecting to the world until one day I was in need of a healing touch myself and it took me two weeks before I could find someone who could do the same for me that I had been doing for others my entire life. Suddenly I started to become aware of being taken advantage. I went to a school to learn how to utilize this skill professionally, but never could quite accept the coldness of the way the connection was taught despite its healing nature.

So I let my license expire and tried to utilize all that I have learned in life in other different ways.

I am still learning how to incorporate how I am, and the knowledge I have, and the abilities I have, in a world that asks for me to relate to it in a different way then I would like to be..

The journey is long.
Faq: how big is our little space that we are working on saving
 
Well it's small. A typical city size, if you knowuch about cities. Even after we save all five areas throughout the city, it will still only be about an acre in total. Why the heck would we care about something so very very very small, you ask, when we could do something bigger. Because in our eyes, this is something BIGGER. It's about teaching folks that they don't have to leave the cities to create that little preserve and connection to nature. It's about showing that you can connect to nature right where you are!
If everyone left the city to go out into nature to create their little havens, eventually there won't be any nature left to preserve. It actually saddens us deeply that people feel that they have to leave a city to connect to nature. There is so much mature that can be found within a city, and if can't, then it can be created and restored and rejuvenated until it can! It's about a mindset. It's about integrating our human worlds WITH nature. It's about healing our cities with a biophilic connection to ourselves, to each other and to life, . It's about promoting living in harmony with other humans AND with mother earth alike! It's ambitious, I know, and thats only the top of the dream since our eventual goal is to do this across many cities but we begin with the place that means the most to us.its about creating a web of nodes within the city to help regenerate the city. Like a root structure spread out throughout the city bringing in life and energy nutrients of nature itself flowing through the city. For us, it begins with our family's small temmy tiny bit land and home at the center of it all....
And from there we will expand our and help to heal the cities own node at a time..and eventually many nodes at a time as our movement grows and heals and regenerates as it grows...

It's about healing and changing the mindset of humanity as a whole. How much bigger than that can you get? Lol?
Reasons why you might not want to connect..
 
So, a small observation. Folks skim my profile and think they are so in love with me, but then when they actually go back to read the profile, they go oh my gosh, what was I thinking, lol. I suppose in a way it is mildly amusing how one second a person can profuse their love and then the next moment, can be just as passionately appalled by my profile once they really took the time to read it... Lol.
Giggle.
So most of you are looking for a soul mate and although there is a part of me that wish dearly that I could be the right kind of person to be your soul mate, the universe created me in strange ways.

I am quite aware that with most of your, the most that can be hoped for is a decent friendships between you and my family. And I am ever so greatful for those connections and I do so treasure the people I have met on here. ..

i know you wanted a soulmate and get upset when you find out I am not what you were going for, but I do so hope that you will allow a friendship connection nonetheless.. and allow us to have a network of contacts in the world.

I really am truly sorry that unless you are someone who can help us with our home and/or who is okay being connected to my family as a whole, high chances are that we best we can hope for is just an occasionally really nice supportive friendship with some of you.. which would be nice.

Anybody who can be accepting and allowing of our little family as strange as it is is a prized treasure in life!..

But if any of these things in the list below are going to make it so that you can't even seem it possible to be even just be friends with us, I'd rather we find this out early instead of getting me all excited about having you being friends with us only to find out that I am just too strange for you to even do that little bit .

So here's the short list of things that people run away from but which are primary characteristics about who and how I am:
1) I record all of life.
2) I will do moments over again sometimes many times just so I can try to capture the moment from more than one angle. If you don't ever try to do a cleanup task or a moving something around in my space, you are less likely to see this detail about me.
3) my kiddo is a 'they...' or an 'it' .. actually we just are just a whatever we are right at that moment kind of people. Life is fluid. Who we are is also fluid. Everyone has a more than one aspect to their personality. who we are this minute might not be the same as who we are a few hours from now.. ..we learned the hard way, a lot can happen between one moment in time and the next moment in time.
4) speaking of time, I am horrible at time constraints..
5) if you ask any of us to be different than we are, unless we are financially dependent on you, we will probably balk at that and discourage connection after that point .

6) if we are going somewhere, my family comes with me. Mom has dementia and she can barely handle if she doesn't know when one of us is gone, so please dont ask to make my life harder by asking me to leave the home in such a way where I cannot be available to them or them to me. Even if she didnt have dementia, I'd still would not like you anymore if you ever asked me to do that...

7) our family cosleeps in same room so if you want me to be someone who can have a traditional relationship with you, yeah, I am sorry,. unfortunately that probably can't happen right now.. I have often said to myself that there is an exception to this and that is if we found someone who could actually save our home, I might be willing to upend and change our lives if that is what it took to save our home.

But I gotta be honest, I am not certain I'd be entirely thrilled about the idea of being asked to do that as your condition to help us... .. even though I might be willing to do what it took to help my family , I suppose, especially to ensure that we dont have our home ripped away from us and that our family is kept safe, I do wonder if it would really be in our best interest to be with someone who didn't accept us strange as we are..

.. I know all this horrifies many people's sense of right and wrong... and I do so deeply apologize if my putting my family and our home first in life might be offensive to some .. humble humble humble apologizes if how we are might not match your own world order.

Humble humble apologizies..
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Monday, June 1, 2026

I would rather have paying clients than friends

Why would I rather have paying clients than "friends."

"Friends" don't pay the bills or pay rent or pay for my time.

They expect me to donate my time and energy to them for free..

I'd much rather have lifetime clients or clients for life than friends who dont do anything other than expect me to listen to them for five hours and  drain my energy 

If they are helping me out with rides or helping me save money, fine. 

But if they are doing that with the expectation that we give them anything more than our ears, no way jose.

And we most certainly will not allow people in our lives who want to control our lives!

Thursday, December 18, 2025

for the folks who ask for "no drama" on the dating sites, this is my response:

But drama is so beautiful... Well at least once it's sorted out and the confusion and conflicts are all resolved . 

.heck.. that is what every sweet and powerful and amazing story and movie and play in life is based off of ..  

The story of how some  conflict that  had to be fixed resolved cured overcome lol...

It's the pure beauty of humanity ..how we all overcame the odds stacked against us. 

And loved lived amazing lives,

 despite the dramas megadramas and subdramas affecting our very life lol..

It's a matter of perspective

 drama can be so beautiful...

 Well at least once it's sorted out
 and the confusion and conflicts are all resolved

Again . .heck.. that is what every sweet and powerful and amazing story and movie and play in life is based off of ..  

The story of how some  conflict that  had to be fixed resolved cured overcome lol...

It's the pure beauty of humanity 

..how we all overcame the odds stacked against us. 

And loved

 lived

 amazing life's 

despite the dramas
 megadramas 
and subdramas

affecting our very life lol..

A positive optimistic person sees the beauty and potential underlying such pain and dramas

Turns life's problems into amazing opportunities and solutions.


A pessimistic person.. sees life's drama as something awful. 

Sees the glass half empty as something awful instead of the opportunity of what it is full of..

Opportunity 

Potential 

Room for growth 

And sometimes amazing!😍 

LOVE 💕 😘 Love  💕 😘 LOVE!

Amen.


Yummm purrr.


For example, the possiblity of our getting evicted from our home
.
It inspired bravery and courage...

To post more, to share more videos, to get the creative juices going, to listen to therapy books and programs

Turning the problem into one heck of a solution...

Somebody donated FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS to us yesterday.  TWICE...

Do you know how much hope that gave us...

To know our ideas or hope was worth to it somebody...


I couldn't even thank them yesterday bc of how speechless I was yesterday needing to take a moment to go. WOW WOW.

YES!  Somebody recognized our potential..

That was such an amazing...

That is the feeling we all need to be feeling everyday
Every moment 

ALL the freaking time..

Thank you to those people who left us feeling empowered to feel that feeling .

Who believed in our idea and in US.  

In our family!

You have our most sincerest form of love !

And appreciation 

And RESPECT!

And love...

Love , 

The Krineteagle Family!

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Love you, 

Thank you thank you thank You!

December 2025

Sunday, December 14, 2025

my fantasy draft

This post was written for one person in mind, but since it was too long to include in a text, I am opting to sharing it publicly here.

In a way, doing so helps me to feel more brave about presenting my fantasy...  

If this person whom I actually wish to see this description of my fantasy turns out to not be interested, then I will consider what other options are available to me.  

Dear person whom I would like to fantasize is the perfect person for this fantasy, 

Please read both versions of my fantasy. 

 If you are able to do at least Part one of the fantasy, then I am open to hearing what you might be asking for

 or requesting or requiring for version 2 of the fantasy....

........

My life fantasy has many parts to it...and many versions.  

Part one is saving my family's home.. 

part five and six are not really needed to be included here bc they do not involve another person unless the same person that is funding part one also decided to help fund part five and six. 

Part five and six have to do with an empire of different assortment of businesses that carry our name and our stamps of approval that my son and I wish to someday fund ..and have our ideas be implemented..  even if we are more just the CEOs and not the actual managers of the day to day of the idea (since most of them we wish to coown with whatever employee we hire): From our nonprofit designed to help humanity, to a side specialty online drink shop that sells very rare niche drinks whose market is barely touched..  from a cricket snack niche to a special food truck idea. To Eagles designs that he would like to see our there from his microscope design idea to his raman spectrometer ideas.   But all of those ideas are all more just side ideas that are more like a bucket list of ideas that we would like to see happen for humanity once our main goals that we are passionate about succeed.  They are Just random ideas that we would like to see funded and out there, but none of which hold our true passion. Just misc idea that we wouldn't mind putting a hand into after we have accomplished our main goal we have in particular for our family's home and land...

Our true passion revolves around Part one - what we wish to accomplish with our family's home and land. 

Whoever helps us to succeed with where our passion lies, that is the person that will have our loyalty and who will be able to have a chance of being the person I have fantasized about for over a decade now.

After this person on a dating site asked me to share my fantasy with them, I tried to finally put into words with a little more detail....

Here is an attempt to verbalize my desire:

Version One:

Six parts to it, but only the first three parts involve another human being .. 

Part 1) some person who would essentially be able to offer us what we want to be able to give others through our non-profit idea...

 Essentially what we wish we could have found before the price of our home went up before the ex sold our home to this person who is now trying to evict us from our home so they can create a minimansion...

But part one now : is basically someone who will buy our home from the people my ex sold the home to 
and  who will then let us have full control  over our family's home and who will help us to go about achieving our dream for the home 

AND make it possible for us to buy back our family's home with all of these ideas we have for it.

 Although it would be super easy for anyone of wealthy means to do part 1, 

even at the higher priced amount..,,

I imagine doing so would come with slightly more strings attached than what are nonprofit is going to be asking from folks (that is once we raise up enough capital for the nonprofit to do what we want it to be able to do for folks). So I imagine for anyone who wishes to have strings attached, that that person who would like to have strings attached, they would probably prefer my version 2 of my fantasy... 

 But for version one::
letting us be able to keep living and having full control over our family's home would definitely be the first part of the fantasy!

- and finding someone who would let us keep living in the home as is, untouched by them...  

- And who would let us have the time we actually need to be able to buy back the home while practicing regenerative priniciples with the land and home.. 

  Theorticaly, all one needs for That part of the fantasy is just someone with a lot of juice who has a soft spot for our family and/or for our fundraiser or nonprofit to raise the kind of funds necessary..

It's parts 2 , well more part 3 that i am not sure a physical human could do....  

Part 2: well that is actually based off something something some of our other close friends aready do for our family, but only combined with part 1..

  Imagining someone who could do both part 1 and also do what normal friends of the family do:: of coming over two or three or four times a year (or more) for some quality laughter with the family - 

Admitedly, Part two is a bit harder to imagine bc it is harder for me to imagine a super wealthy person who could afford to actually do part one of my fantasy to also be willing to spend five hours hanging out with me and my whole family...we have had wealthy friends before, but they still required more than I think we might be able to give with mom in her current condition.  That is to me the saddest part about version 2..  and why I wish from all of my soul, I could find someone willing to do version one of my fantasy..  for grandmom's sake.  I wish I could give her that...

There is a sense of infinite peacefullness
  if part 1 AND part 2 could indeed be combined..

Sigh.

  Unfortunately, most people we know who are willing to come to laugh with us at our home,  dont tend to have any were near the level of financial resources that we would need to save our home.

Oh, but we do so like to fantasize that such a person exists in the world.  

Part three-

 thats the 'secret' fantasy which I openly admit exists,  but which I keep secret from my heart... 

Its the idea of finding:
 a completely all accepting, all allowing human male who was not only completely comfortable with me being me as i am, but who actually even encouraged it.. 

Someone who utter acceptance of all the ways i am left me feeling safe enough to bring out the more sensual silly parts of me on a more permanent basis rather than the little bursts of confidence that come out from time to time whenever i imagine for a brief moment a spurt of hope for financial confidence of owning my family's home again one day (and the financial  means of getting to do our goals) and just over all the feeling of feeling financially safe again. 

But that would take someone ever so patient and nonjudgemental and patient and allowing of my slowness
 and someone allowing of my desire to live and share life with my family at all times 
and  someone who allowed me to video and audio record life amd live life in the way i wanted to my hearts content. 

That last part of my fantasy would take one heck of an amazing man to do that.

  The secret part of that last part that I do not share with my heart is that over time and over the years that pass , 
that that same man would allow me to slowly melt all my many shields and would allow me to  let myself enjoy being with them on a more physical intimate level.. 

in a deeply passionate way...

I do not let my heart know that someday it would be nice to eventually felt safe to fantasize throwing my arms about someone to kiss them passionately,

whose stare I would welcome as they enjoyed my body, 
whom over the years I would became so comfortable with them physically and mentally,  that I was able to do more than just dance for a minute or two... 

 but where i felt alive and dancing ALL the time

 and felt able to feel cuddly and safe to be intimate with someone again.  Lol.  

 But that part, would take so much allowing patience as they watched me slowly come out of my shell more and more until I just naturally felt that kind of confidence all the time.
 Yummmmmmpurrrrrrrr.....

.dont know how many men have that kind of patience and willingness to provide the financial and mental acceptance of me and that kind of safety that that would involve. 

 They would probably also have to be easily amused and patient and entertained by my silly ways.   

It's doable.  And oh so wonderful to imagine.  

And i would love to imagine that kind of financial security  and mental safety to fully be myself around you.  

But it's also something I know better than to ask another human to actually be able to do, lol.  

But it is so nice when i allow myself to fantasize about that idea coming from a real human being who is outside of our family from time to time...

 Yummmmm.....

Part 4 is just all the places that kiddo and I want to one day get to travel to and see in person.......

Part 5 or 6 has to do with the rest of our bucket list and doesnt really need another person's individual help to accomplish... bc by the time we are ready to do them, they will be done just for fun and not bc there is any sense of urgency about them.

....

Now even if you cannot do version one bc you are a human being with your own fantasies and needs that need to get met .. if you can at least do part one of the version one, then i will be open to doing version 2  IF  that is what it will take to save our familys home and to be allowed to do our dream for the home.


Fantasy Version 2: 

Version #2 is not an ideal fantasy for me, but I could see how it could be an ideal fantasy for someone else.  Perhaps for the person who might be willing to actually help us to save our home?

I've tried to imagine it from time to time bc historically it is the more realistic version.. and I am prepared to go that route if no other option present itself. (Just please be considerate in not expecting me to be as thrilled about that option as I would be by the first version..)

I will be relieved and content and grateful even if that is all that life is willing to bring my way.. and even a little bit tickled that at the very least that option was presented...but please be okay with my wishfully wishing for the ideal version 1 -- where I was accepted and appreciated for being just as I am.  

Version #2 is where just like was historically done for women throughout all time and history, where a woman had to basically give herself to her husband or sugardaddy or whatever the person was ...  doing their bidding and for all practical purposes, as done in history, essentially being owned by that other being until they either one day miraculously bought back their own independence...or they just ended up being that way for life...

In some ways, there is a certain sense of security knowing that one would be cared for for life..so I suppose very few women indeed ever tried to gain independence..

I think I personally would like the freedom to be allowed to become independent so that I could be allowed to do as I wanted or be as I wanted whenever I wanted... 

I know that most likely I would stay loyal to whomever gave me the chance to gain my independence whilst also be allowed to keep my family's home, simply bc a sense of loyalty tends to be built into my very nature. And it is a trait I value and admire..  but I have learned that it is not something I would ask for in another.  It is enough that I follow my own values.

I would ask that even with version 2 that I be 
1) allowed to continue to record and document everything, 2) that I be allowed to practice zero waste, 3) that I be allowed to have full control over my family's home and the items that are currently inside the home, and 4)that i be allowed to be with my family or have my family be with me for all times that my personalized attention were not being required. 

 I think as long as I was allowed to sleep in the same room with my family and allowed to be with them when my attentions were not needed, I think I could handle the rest of whatever was probably required of me. 

 ( I am not a 100% sure if this an accurate guarantee that I could be whomever was needed of me in order to save my family home,

 but I do know that realistically I could probably try to be that way -- once I know that the home was safely secure - away from those people who bought it from my ex and with someone who would at least give me an honest fighting chance for my son and I to learn the skills necessary to buy it back)

If you have the means to buy my family's home back from those people my ex sold the home to..

...  and if you are willing to let my son and I learn the skills necessary to buy our home back from you, then will you please discuss with me, what you strings attached you might have....what you would need from me in order to make such a strategy a viable one for both of us..

Written the month of Dec, year 2025....

Thank you for reading, 
          - Krin of the Krineteagle Family