Why shouldd I feel annoyed or resentful.. She doesnt even rememeber why we were agueing or what started the argument.
She is just argueing now just to argue bc she doesnt even know why we are argueing, just that we are argueing --- so no matter what I say, she will see it as something she must argue against even if was meant to reassure her
But she believes everything we are saying is automatically wrong or false or a lie or wrong and that only she is right --
only she cant even remember what she thought was wrong.
So i am I just going to be quiet and write.. Bc in five minutes she won't even rmemeber why i was in here in the first place.
She sees that i am writing so she waits but in the meantime she has gotten distracted by a piece of ice.
See.
The argument will continue later when she remembers for a moment, but right now she has forgotten.
The hard part is knowing that i will never get or rarely will i ever get my needs met to be heard or understood.. And even if she does for one brief moment, it wont really matter bc two minutes later she wont remember that she had.
She is stuck frozen only in the moment. She frets about a future, she makes up a past. But she is still stuck in the moment.
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