a different perspective
The ideas in here might be considered controversial by some. They certainly are not your traditional mainstream way of thinking. And I doubt I will find anyone who 100% agrees with me on everything I wrote. I am not ever sure I always 100% agree with what I write in here. I apologize if some of what I write offends or scares you that someone or that I might think anything written in here. Take every idea with a grain of salt, and contemplate it just as an idea.
Sunday, March 10, 2024
please have patience
Wednesday, December 28, 2022
different perspective - yes you most certainly are the victim ad other controversial statements most of you are sure to disagree with or will be deeply offended by or abhorred by
Wednesday, October 26, 2022
profile on dating app
Saturday, October 15, 2022
yes I am selfish, are you?
Friday, June 17, 2022
latest summer profile 2022
Angel for a Garden
46 • Female • Houston, Texas, United States
Looking for friend of the family, saving a garden
- Info
Display wishlist on my profile
Angel for a Garden's Info
- Looking For
- Men
- Ethnicity
- White / Caucasian
- Children
- 1
- Education
- Some College
- Smokes
- Non Smoker
- Body Type
- Slim
- Occupation Industry
- -
- Drinks
- Social Drinker
- Height
- 5'2"
- Relationship
- Divorced
About Me
I know i dont qualify but i hope what i write below will help you with the future woman of your dreams.
Gentleman, if you want a women to care about you, find out what she cares about and make it possible for her to have that and then in gratitude she will automatically feel a caring back for you.
If this doesnt happen, id like to know why.
The key is not just get her any small gift that makes you happy (i see men doing this a lot with women) but to find the gift that she believes will help her to succeed at her goal and get her that.
It requires active listening. I imagine men need something similar (in terms of the active listening part?)
For example what would help us with our goal would be this five thousand doller etrike (I can't drive so I would need an etrike to be able to move my elderly mom around the city independently)
Or this two thousand dollar aircrete machine that would allow us to build the building we want to create.
For me personally though I am just looking for someone willing to lend us a hand and then let us refund the help in a platonic way.
Ie. Paying them back either $10/month or via platonic bodymind mistebing sessions until all paid off.
But that request seems an impossibility these days bc noone seem interested unless the other person is willing to do nonplatonic things only.
Maybe one day I will feel safe enough to give that part of myself but right now I wont until ive made sure our family's estate is protected. 😕
It is amazing how hard it is to just Find a simple friends to our family.
Who will encourage me to record the world around us & who will help us with my garden goals & who has the ability to help out if they actually wanted to.....(the last part being the hardest, I suppose)
Which i suppose is why i am on here.
Right now i just need friends to help me have hope but it would be nice to know one of those friends could help if they were willing to
we are also Looking for a co-owner for our home until our estate one day could earn its way back from you decades and decades and maybe even centuries from now by renting out a room.
It will take awhile bc we would have to give back about five hundred of those 'K's and that will probably take a couple of lifetimes to get back to you? Sigh.
We ask for you to be okay with our using technology to have a 'synthetic memory' -- as we now know in life how fragile human memory minds can be and how much human perspective hampers actual memory. be willing to aid in our learning how to incorporate a symbiosis with technology.
I am quite well aware of how strange and odd , etc etc that we may seem to others.
If you want ordinary, normal, sane... Lol.. We wish you well on your journey.
If you think you can handle odd, eclectic, weird, strange, unusual, maybe we might have a chance.
We take some getting used to.
And it takes an incredibly open-minded, non judgemental, lover of strange and unique, accepting, tolerant and extremely patient and amused soul to handle our entities.
We are not for the narrow minded or limited being...
Seeking
Please only message me ONLY IF you are ok with PLATONIC friendship first for awhile
Bc i will be staying celibate until such time that i feel our estate is safe and protected as i will not be engaging in that world of activity until I know that our vision will continue even if anything happens to myself or my grandma.
Please also only ask for my private photo only if you have provided me yours first
AND Only if you are ok with the fact that chances are 98 to 99 % likely that I am most likely only willing to be platonically involved with you - ...
it takes years of friendship to my family and I, along with my family really encouraging me to be with someone before i would be wiling to consider someone as something more then a friend.
In meantime, I am grateful to those who allow me to be celibate bc that is a freedom I know is very very rare.
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Saturday, January 22, 2022
sessions i can offer
creating a memory is pointless if you are not able to access the memory again later
Friday, December 24, 2021
you don't actually want to get to know anyone
Thursday, December 23, 2021
yoy don't have to be nice
Tuesday, November 30, 2021
Friday, November 26, 2021
apologies for being different
Tuesday, November 23, 2021
if only you could feel my mind
Tuesday, October 26, 2021
why do you feel alone?
Monday, September 27, 2021
trials of interacting with a person with dimensia
Tuesday, August 31, 2021
Thursday, April 8, 2021
Getting through the inner screams into a state of calm
I wish it was always a positive narrative.
But Some moments like this very moment i was originally writing this next part,
Thise momentz Where i have concentrate hard to try to will my being back into a state of calmness even even though every ounce of the hurting parts of me wants to scream and scream until i habe no more scream left in me, even though it feels like there is an infinite supply of the scream inside of me...
Memory loss in itself is not a problem.. but when the person with the memory loss believes they can never do any wrong and the other person is always at fault and can never possibly be right..
when the person with the memory loss accuses the person with the memory of lying bc they cannot remember (or have made up memories to replace the ones that do not exist)..
or
Of not understanding bc the person with memory problems has a different understanding based on a much more narrower set of facts, usualy often completely erroneous facts bc they have no memory of what actually happened and couldnt possibly have done what the people with memory claim to have happened.
To be told over and over again that my own memories (even though they are backed up by video and audio recordings just to be sure) are wromg over over again, sometimes i even start to doubt myself.. ie why i record EVERYthing now. So i have can proof of my own brain and what it knows or doesnt know.
Thank goodness kiddo is around or i dont think i would have made ir through without ending up in an insane asylum..
Bc around about at this moment i was writing kiddo comes in to the bedroom where i am hiding in bed wrting this and asks to find out first hand what actually happened and sees that i am about to burst into tears and he reaches out and holds me while i release into tears
And he keeps holding me until the silent screams and tears have completely emptied and flowed themselves out and long after the shuddering has subsided and when he realizes i am finally able to speak he asks me simple yes no questions until i am able to dialogue and explain more fully.
And some how my center is slowly regained..
Although i suspect my blood chemistry is still off kilter so he gets me some nigella seeds and chamomile tea to help my blood chemistry to get back to a state of more calmness.
And maybe writing here will also help?
I wonder, does my sharing my writing ever help anyone else?
201pm
Friday, March 19, 2021
connections
i enjoy the feeling of connection...
having my own mind be heard and understood and appreciated.
being able to hear other people's minds and getting to understand and appreciate them.
okay, that's only true half the time.. there are exceptions from time to time when I have things i want to get done which need my energy or concentration. --- Which depending on the topic of a conversation, I can be kind of wiped afterwards and then have to have time to recenter and reboot before i can even attempt to get anything done again.
Esp when you are caring with someone with a touch of dimensia.. one get's to know the basics of their brains pretty dam fast, esp when their limited number of stories start to go on repeat but it's still always the first time for them... .. kiddo and I still listen in and make a digital memory of it all for prosperity.. because sometimes, on the sweetest of occasions, we get to hear a bit of history we didn't yet know about. those are treasured moments. and then also super aggravating when the tech doesn't work and the story gets lost bc the chances of them repeating one of those rarer story gems, are well, not high..
though these days, sometimes it seems like some stories are getting combined in interesting ways... which actually makes it more fascinating for us though.. or when we can get them to tell us their history in their native tongue. then we could listen for hours quite delightfully. :D
Saturday, February 6, 2021
the misunderstood pack rat part 1
Tuesday, September 15, 2020
It is IMPOSSIBLE to be born alone.
Even if there is no God,, it is literally impossible to be born alone!!!
And whowver says that you are born alone either is just blindly quoting some inaccurate stupid quote, is completely ignorant to the prescense of the mothers energy, or completely unaware and unappreciative of the mothers prescense..
And in todays world, for many people, thwre is also rhe company of all the doctors and nurses and people nearby awaiting eagerly the birth.
So one doesnt have to die alone either!!!
And if you are a spiritual person or religious person in any sense of the word, it is even more offensive and unappreciative to believe that anyone could possibly ever be alone at ANY point in their life,whether its at the beginning, middle, or end.
Bc you ALWAYS have company with you. Your own higher self of nothing else.
No single person has only one personality. If they did, it means they never had any thoughts ..
And even if you dont believe in god or psychology, there is the fact that your body is NOT only made of your own dna but also the millions of dna of all the million of microbiota that make up anpart of your body in your intensitines, on your skin, in your mouth, in your body.
If you count microbiota, Your body alone is actually composed of millions of other life forms other then your own.
Your body is a whoe ecosystem of life.
Therefore your DNA, your core self is NEVER alone. You always have rhe company of all the many parts of your ego, your microbiota with its own essenses along with all the energies that have ever crossed paths with you mjxed up and combined with your own energy!!
In fact, spiritually AND physically, it is IMpossible to actually ever feel lonely if you have any sense of awareness whatsoever!
Ok so maybe you might be missing rhe physical touch of another human being or mammal from time to time in your life. If so, start volunteering!!!
But never never say people are born alone bc that is the biggest lie/myth/falsehood ever created by some ignorant unaware slefish, selfish unappreciative being!!!
You are never alone..
We are all connected!!!
Just your even have read this just connected us.. or even if you know someone who knows someone who knows someone who read this, we are still connected by these words.
Look for the ways you are connected..
If you live on rhe same planet, connect
by this earth, if you are human, by our human dna. I challenge you to come up with at least ten different ways you are connected to at least ten different people!!
And then when you are done i challenge you to find ten different families(or nonprofits if you hate people) in need of financial support or encouragement and give each of them a dollar each month.
Need help finding people.
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Written Sept 15,2020 945am on my old barely working but still ticking samsung s111
Sunday, July 5, 2020
You have won the lottery. What is the first thing you are going to do?
I realized the other day that for us the VERY first thing is GET SOME DECENT RECORDING EQUIPMENT! !!
Before doing anything else, we really wants some special phones that have wil jave the abolity to go 12 hours while on videoing WITHOUT overheating, with the battery still working after 2 hrs being on, with enough storage space to keep it all until we get somewhere where it can all get uploaded and where it is EASILY uploaded up to the cloud.
Do such phones exist? Will you get us three no make that four of them?
Also a bunch of motion sensor camera for the front yard as well.
Why not the back yard.bc we want to be able to walk around in our back yard however we are without being "on camera".. even though we take five billion photos of everything our eyes see, we dont always want to be ON camera ourselves.
Oh i supose i wouldnt have a problem with it -- if our society didnt , but our world is not ok with people "in the raw".
Why cameras?
Bc what we have learned after working with so many people with memory problems and with just life itself -- is that if life isnt recorded in SOME form or another whether its a photpgrpah, a painting (think cabe aer i mean cave art), carvings, (think rosetta stone and cuniform) think fossils, think soul samples showing the history of geology or archeology. . Then if it wasnt recorded, ir might as well never have happened. People need proof.
True what we record might all still get lost like the ten years worth of journals my mom accidentally destoryed by leaving my voc out in the rain out accidentaly one year many years ago.
Or if an emp happens or if somethibg wipes it all out.
I do get how fragile life is.
But by making the effort, at least there is a chance something of that moment will get to be trrasured by another.
My ex ddint let us have access to the first ten years of photos and records of my sons life and he much to my sadness iwonder if he kept any of it :/
And it breaks my heart that he erased any of it
BUT we do have one small video of kiddo when he was three and i treasure that video. That moment and wish we had capturedso many kore to share with the world.
Sigh bc his life..his conversations thos early years was worrh sharing with you.
Alas i dont know if we will ever be able to.
But maybe if we have the recorders on now.. even though we dont do much now worth sharing.. thwre might come a moment and itd be nice to have it ready.. bc we so enjoy sharing our thoughts and the beauty we see in the world with you.
The very next thing to do is make sure a trust get started to make sure our property can be saved and put into a trusr so we can make our dream for the property a reality.
Somewhere in there we make sure to make a faraday cage to protect the electronics that help us to function
and make sure we have the solar powered freezer/fridge/dehrdratpr/cooker/ for ourselves and our friends.
A solar powered cooler for the house.
A foot pedaled wasging machine would be nice as well.
Making sure we have at least a years sypply of toiletries, soaps, basic survava equiomemts that being withoit money and covid has taught us to how umpirtant to have just around the house is.
Get berries and fruit trees planted and greenhouse set up for exotic tropicals and food available for us and nwarby neighbors.
Once we are syre our famiky and friends are functional and secure shoukd anything worse happen
For example, make sure we get food forest with rabbits and chickens established. And mini homes and storage set up.
Only THEN start paying off all our debts.
After debts are paid off.
Then set up funds so that taxes always get paid.
After that is all set up start paying off familys debts where they owe us instead but at a a MUCH lower almost non existent interest rate.
Then if anything leftover after all that then start investing an alll othe other ideas we want to invest in. :) and 1 are many of those jdeas. :)
531am july 4/5 2020
Will you tell me a little bit about you?
Id like to know a little bit more about you if i may.
Have you ever read marshalls book on nonviolent compassionate communication?
Would you be willing to learn about cnvc?
Would you be willing to eat our strange cooking?
Would you be okay with having your life recorded?
Would you be willing to be okay with silence?
Would you be okay with. ..virtual
You know what..
I am too scared to connect. Never mind.
I am too scared.
Tuesday, June 16, 2020
i am a fountain of love, but that doesn't mean i want to be with you...
Monday, April 27, 2020
The fragility of our lives
this morning considering i had shot up awake from a horrible nightmare which left me in a state of massive anxiety the rest of the morning about the future of my moms health bc her health is the only thing protectng the properties and my dreams right now bc if anything haopens to her before i have my life together, we are screwed. My dreams would be screwed.
All that i want in life would no longer be possible unless somebody else stepped in to rescue my/our dreams. but i gotta admit, frankly even though i am on a dating site, I gotta be honest.
The idea of becoming intimate with anyone is very unnerving to me.
Yes, I will be around whoever my family is around and i suppose that person one day has a chance with me, but i dont really want a life outside of my family and or my dream goal to save my familys property.
All i want in life right now is just to prevent my familys homes from getting sold off and torn down.
All i want is just to be able to buy my sister out of her half of moms home and my ex out of his half of our home so i can put the homes into a trust that cant be touched by anyone so the homes and the stuff inside the homes can be salvaged as they are and so i can transform the gardens into the edible oasis of my dreams and have people be able to visit it and be inspired.
That alls i want right now... to be able to save the properties for my son and grandchikdren so i can be able to live out my life being with my family and transforming those very particular gardens.
But i am worried that i will be wasting your time if you are hoping for more from me.
Though i desperately want people who will help me protect the homes from people who wanted to sell it off the day until either my son or i one day msde income of our own and could then just buy every one out, i also dont want to be accused of wasting anyone's precious time.
We do enjoy people who are willing to be freinds of the family but if you are imaging me being able to let down my shields enough to be like my old self, i am afraid it is going to be eons before i can do that even with close friends again.
The hope is that if i ever one day feel like my dreams are safe then maybe id relax enoigh to let the world in but i honestly dont know when if ever that will ever happen again.
But would you be ok with a platonic business partnership or just a simple friendship?
April 27 2020
935am to 715pm
Wednesday, April 15, 2020
if I was a millionaire would I still try to connect to people
Saturday, April 11, 2020
Would you rather $10,000 or $1200?
https://twitter.com/trom771/status/1244295679796805632?s=20
Wpuldnt you rather have $10,000 then $1,200????
be mimdful of the kind of people you vote for!!
If Bernie HAD been president in 2016, you just might have gotten $10,000 instead of $1200.
But at least he got you the $1200 amd he had to fight hard to get.l that bc there were people on the senate who didnt even want to give you that. :/
Give him more power by still gettimg more people to vote his name in still. His name is still on the ballots!!
Originally poated 3/30 update april 11.
Bernies name is still on ballot -- whixh is an opportunkty if you want to create a miracle
At least he left his name on the a ballot. amd there is an opportunity here that everyone is missing That is important.
If he had not left his name on the ballot, THEN i would have been pissed off.
Though i understood why he made it official at first i thought his timing sucked abiut when he chose to make it official.
BUT Unofficially i guess half the world didnt notice he had already dropped out of the campaign part several weeks ago not too long after the corona virus hit.
Not a single email from him asked for money for himself or his campaign and it was alll going only to charities.
Personally i thought that was a much better way to go because i had been pissed at him this time around asking for money instead of doing what he did last time which was aksing for networking and free advertising.
I still think that would have been smarter way to go this time and i had felt like he had had sucky campaign managers this time around for nott doing what had gotten me to fall in love with him last time.
I had been so pissed off this time around that at first i was not going to speak up about him in his favor at all this time around until i had heard about the green new deal.
Only then did i decide to speak up more about that and him and then about medicare for all.
But pojint was i liked how he had finally stoped unoffically campaigning for money and had started to let actions speak for.themselves.
i was disappointed he had made it officially but i totally get it from his perspective..
it WAS interfering from what he was needing to do c he was having to soend too much time on rhe defensive instead of doing the offensive. Now he cam concentrate on the offensive.
IF the people really want him in they COULD pull off a miracle of keeping all the biden voters home bc convincing them not worth voting since biden "already won" and having only bernie voters go vote ( and voila if biden didnt get a single more vote and only bernies votes came in they would pull of their miracle stunt.
It IS certainly accomplishable...
but the only way its going to happen is if the people MAKE it happen instead of wallowing and not reacognizing the opportunity they have available to do now.
We now have an incredible opportunity folks. Lets make it happen.
Monday, April 6, 2020
in response to being asked, 'who is to blame for the world the way it is now"
1147pm , not aug, not march,no now ti is april 6/7 2020
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Please please please read this article
https://www.currentaffairs.org/2020/03/everything-has-changed-overnight?fbclid=IwAR3QLETY938Jxa4GSdxwH5USsZ_h4rHkkrq7cpl-5Y4zb1GTw0MF7zjay4Q
Update the article is a little dated now but you should still get as many people votinf for bernies name on the ballot amd convince all the biden lovers to stay hoke and not vote now.
Friday, April 3, 2020
What Age shoukd kids have cell phones at
Kiddo has had his own cell phone from the beginning so we could fill it up with educational apps but it also didnt have a phone number attached to it until he was about 10 when we had to be apart more.
If we had to be apart at an earlier age, i woupd have given him his own number even earlier on for safety reasons.
BUT we always had a rule that he was no allowed to post on the internet or on the phone to anyone outside of us without showing us thr message first.
One year when he was 11 or 12 i let up on that rule until I was furious to find one day that he had picked a rather rude fight with some rather mean people on one of the online games. So he lost priveleges to that gane and once again i became hard core that he couldnt send any messages out unless preapproved.
But slowly over time, i realized he had learned his lesson and that he was being mindful and most times i only glance long enough to tell its some technical jardin that is over my head anyways or just let him tell me with half an ear open to listen for any red flags.
Point is as long as you are checking, ANY age works.
its better for them to learn early how to handle 'online' etiquette through you then learn the hard way as a teenager or as an adult.
You can always put a limit on internet time or youtibe restrictions or even text restrictions and what numbers they can call or just not even give them a number at all. Whike still having access to educational apps.
Just CHECK the phone daily or at least biweekly to make sure they havent hacked your system or loaded up inaprropriaye things.
And if they did, instead of going balistic, Discuss with them WHY..
use it to teach them the etiquette you want them to learn and follow
In response to friend asking at what age should kids have access to cell phones.
April 02 2020 not 2018 anymore.
Monday, March 30, 2020
An interesting conversations with someone on a dating site about "knowledge... "
I thought id share part of an interesting convwrsation i had with someone on a dating site that emcouraged arrangements.. not that i have ever foujd someone that i actually ever wanted to make an arrangememt with but it does remind me of how the humbleness of human nature so i stay on there as a reminder to be humble and ever so grateful for what we do have in our life.:
I womt publish his profile but will let you know that he asked the reader to answer what two times four is at the end of his lengthy but interesting profile.
Lol.
Here was my response:
The answer is 42 (just kidding, inside joke btween my son and I unless you have read 'Hitchhiker's Guide to the Universe'
To your particular question: eight (it would be kind of neat if you put a trick riddle on there, like "how much does a Lb of feathers weigh?" Or something fun like that. ;)
Well lets see how to prove not a catfish? Send you to a silly video we made and put up on youtube? Hm, conversation over phone?
I am a little bit disappointed you would not accept a platonic arrangement, even if the arrangement did not involve any money transactions at all unless you just became fond of someone over time.
Knowledge is only half the battle.. implementing & remembering that knowledge in the heat lf the moment.. ahh now that takes practice i suppose?
I am interested in some of your knowledge.. though more to compare notes and seeing another perspective as i imagine some areas we might disagree.. i am fairly passionate about my own particular views about agriculture and some other areas you listed.
I dont know if i could get your needs met bc of the corona virus fesr of it affecting my mother and myself as i do not have health insurance, but id still be open to maybe finding some kind of connection if you were up for it.
You seem interesting to me, lol. :D
His response:
Thank you for the detailed info, you seem interesting as well however
a) knowledge is not free, this is why universities charge you with no employment guarantees and a shit load of other data that proves that its a scamm
b) the above in reply to PLATONIC
c) I dis agree re "knowledge is half the battle, its not, obviously if you have knowledge you have remembered what you have learned - unless you are suffering from a mental disorder causing you to have memory loss
d) I m not interested in helping anyone your age, its like swimming against the current, your stuck in your ways and established habits
This was my response back...( btw, id be curious to know you own take on the matter. So encourage to put your own input in of who you agree or disagree with down below in the comments section below.)
My response:
Lol..
A) if one is willimg to research and trade time for knowledge, there is a LOT of the same knowledge one gets from a university from books and online .. when kiddo was three and i needed a moment to myself, I used to sit him down in front of free online MIT physics lectures since at age three he was alreadys showing a high aptitude for science and he has already come across more historical knowledge then i ever came across in my 20 years of schooling. ... I even learned how to fix some of the plumbing in the house for free by willing to trade time and research. Yes it was a trade of time.. but i suppose it depends on how you define 'free'.. time itself is highly valuable...
B) I am not saying i only want platonic longterm though i admit the whole virus has heightened my fears.. .. but before the corona virus, I did find i am far more likely to be attracted to someone when nature is allowed to just takes its course rather then when i think sexuality is a requirement -- just to get to find out if I might even be attracted.
But just as i would want to be allowed to find out if chemistry developed on its own, I would offer the same back of not expecting an arrangement unless nature & chemistry eventually led us in that direction..
C) so i wish what you said was true for all the people i have observed learning and relearning.. even the super geniuses i grew up, when it came to understanding people, so often i observed as I watched them 'learn about people', i realized as i watched them, that learning wven for their mensa minds, seems to be more like a vortex.. as i watched them 'forget' and the relearn but with increased understanding and insight each time aroumd, climbing in awareness and a deeper comprehension of the knowledge each time around.
-- Just like learning to play the piano; Or take iceskating for example: Each time around a skater gets better but when they get tired they start to mess up more seeming like like they are forgetting what they have learmed but their mind just needed to need to rest but then when they start up again they learn quicker and faster.. same with learning a language.
.... Btw. I have worked with a handful of people with true memory loss.. and its a bit different and scarier watching them truly forget all that they know. esp as one watches them go from through the decline over years. (Shudder down my spine.. remembering for them, but watching their existence of all of their life slowly disappear forever)
D) i do know what you mean. aftwr 20 years of being discouraged from doing many basic tasks any normal functional adult should know , I am now a 40 something year old woman who is having to relearn how to drive and pay taxes and manage in the world just like how when I was 17 .. it basically feels like having to start over from the beginning, only this time having to overcome the fears and insecurities that have sneaked in over time and without the incredible bravado and hutzpah and naive confidence i once had and which i miss having .. and yes, i agree, it does feel like swimming against the current sometimes, often -- having to undo and break all those eatablished habits in order to reopen my mind so that i can get myswlf to believe again that anything is possible.. that anything can be ..
.... at first it really was like having been thrown into a twilight zone story and thrown into an ice cold shark infested water after having beem shattered into a million tiny pieces.. slowly taking those pieces and creating a beaitiful new art piece like one does with kintsugi. All while trying to learn how to swim as well.
but one benefit that has come from all the many profound experiences we have been having the last couple of years ... from one massive change to the next.. the ever increasing awareness of how the world is like an ameoba constantly changing shape and form...
and how we think today willl most likely not be how we will be thinking next month let alone a year from now.
The reason why i said knowledge is half the battle, btw, came from a quote my dad used to chant to me bavk when i first started having awareness of how my actions can affect others when i was a wee chikd first learning awareness of the world :: after watching anothwr child throw a tantrum and seeing how it affected everyone, suddenly awakened and realized that my own tantrums would be felt in a similar way as that other child. he had been so proud of me for finally having that awareness but he warned me in my childlike arrogance that having that awarenes was only half the battle.. And he was right.. just because i had knowledge of how my actions affected others, and then later learning skills to help center and ground myswlf and get to a compassionate empathetic state, it was only half the battle of learning.. the rest was learning how to apply alll that knowledge and actually putting it into practice ... knowing how to take a deep breath and look around and reach within for compassion doesnt do much good if I dont actually take a moment to actually practice taking that deep breath in, lol. And i am still learning the art of it. Sometimes failing miserably, other times mastering the art far superior to others.. but alway learning new insights and nuances and adapting..
Conclusion, even though you would not be interested in helping me financially.. perhaps an interesting conmection might still be allowed to evolve between us in these changing times..
That is, If you yourself are willimg to step outside of your own established ways and established 'habits' to explore with me both of us stepping outside of our normal way of life to hear other perspectives.. even if just but for a moment, lol.. ;)
"554pm march 30 2020"
#knowledge
#platonicpossibilities
#knowledgeisfree
The hidden oppprortunity bernie just gave us by not runming an active campaign anymore. You coukd make bernie win now if you wanted
Originally i had posted this article back in march sometime
https://www.commondreams.org/views/2020/03/11/dark-time-eye-begins-see-2020-bernie-campaign-represents-fight-must-continue
BUT since he stopped campaigning i want to remind folks that this presents us with an amazing oportunity to still win by sneaking him in.
1) convince the biden lovers not neceasary to vote
2) remind bernie lovers to still vote
IF ONLY bernie lovers voted now then bernie could still win!!!
Scifi dream effects
So all my life i refused to watch those violent halloween horror films but i realized after the nightmare i woke up with just now this morning of a group of timw travelors who could never get back tp thwor own time line and unkverse and kept flipping into these scary universes where alien bugs were falling from the ceiling or jumping onto ones face that all those sci fi films with small but lasts in your head thought provoking scenese left just as horrible scary images in my head.
From simple 'more innocent kid scifi shows like like 'lost in space' or 'meninblack'to scifi thrillers like 'aliens', 'or one i acvidentay watched like 'sphere' of bw careful what you imagine bc it might become reality (thoigh even simple star trek had an episode like that), and the very few but horrifying lasting few episodes i accdentally watched of xfiles bc my ex loved it or twilight zone whixh my dad loved or other random shows i accidentally came across through other people..
One of the most lasting ones being some silly time travel show i watched with my family where the only scene i rememver was where the kid trys to stop his parents from opening the microwave bc of aome object in it which left me with nightmares for years..
It makes me wish i had never watched a single scifi movie ever growing up.
And instead watched lovely little things like watching liziqi utube videos. Not that such a thing existed when i was growing up.
But sadly i watched and filled my brain instead with way too many scifi shows and thrillers over the years.
Amd it can make for some very um scifi like nightmares when I am stressed.
Now if i only i could make showcase my vivid sleep dreams and make some money off of them, lol.
If you liked me sharuming this with you maybe you could send my family and i a gift of $12 in the gift form of $1/month through patreon.com/KeE
Thank you.
516am wokeup 445 am march 29/30 2020