gardendreamer
"Help us Create an Urban FoodForest Story inside th city"
Houston, Texas, USA
50 - Female - Straight
Seeking: 18 - 98
50 - Female - Straight
Seeking: 18 - 98
My Profile
- Relationship Seeking:
- LTR, Friends, Travel Companion, Pen Pals, Just Curious, Other, Celibate Relationship, Celibate Marriage
- Spoken Languages:
- English
- Marital Status:
- Divorced
- Spiritual Beliefs:
- Conscious/Spiritual
- Dietary Preference:
- I eat anything
- Drink?
- I drink socially
- Tobacco?
- I don’t smoke
- 420 Friendly:
- No marijuana for me
- Often Exercise:
- 1-2 days/week
- Energy Level:
- Average
- Education:
- Some college
- How Green?
- Medium Green (mostly green lifestyle)
- Political Views:
- Prefer not to say
- Have Children?
- I have one child
- Want Children?
- Other
- Living situation:
- My kids live with me full-time
- Willing to relocate:
- No
- Sun Sign:
- Not sure
- Rising Sign:
- Not Sure
- Moon Sign:
- Not sure
- Chinese Sign:
- Not Sure
- Ethnicity:
- Other
- Height:
- 5’0-5’3 (1.52 m - 1.62 m)
- Body Type:
- Slim/Slender
- Ayurvedic Body Type:
- Not sure
- Weight:
- Less than 100 lbs (45.45 kg)
- Hair Color:
- Brown
- Hair Style:
- Medium curly/wavy
- Eye Color:
- Brown eyes
- Use eyewear?
- Other
More Depth
Describe yourself (personality/attitude/passions/beliefs):
I am trying to find friendships for the family with spirits/souls who would also be willing to help us save our land and do our projects with us. ( the moderators do not want me to go into much, if any, detail because they want to avoid classified ads and would prefer i stick with what I am looking for in a romantic partner. - But see, that is exactly what I am looking for in a romantic partner:: Is the person who would actually be willing to help us with our dream! I can only be romanced by people are first and foremost a close friend to my whole family and i! Not just me.. you have to let us into my whole family into your life or none at all. Do not ask me be to separate from my family
Originally before 2026, I was looking for someone ro outbid my neighbors out to buy my ex out and to help us do our dream to convert our family's property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis INSIDE a big city. But sadly we lost that home...
Sadly most folks on here only want to do this OUTSIDE the city. We are looking for the rare unicorn who would be up for the psychic and mental challenge it will take to create that kijd of symbiosis with nature INSIDE a big city. So instead of leaving the city to find the healing of the spirit - to instead be up for the ultimate challenge of bringing a healing node of synergy right back INTO the city. Creating a network of safe beautiful healing nodes WiTHIN the city. Healing the cities from within.
A healing of the spirit from the inside out! ;)
But even if you would not be interested in that, perhaps there is still some way we can be of mutual help to one another.
I believe the universe put us in each other's pathway for a reason.
For a mutual exchange of energy in some form of another to help each other with each others dreams and goals!
Definitely any small way you would be willing to help make our dreams and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true would be appreciated.. Even if it is something small way by telling folks about us or about our various media projects? Or by letting us offer to you one of our services..? Or finding some way we can be of service to you from our beautiful little teeny tiny little urban home. (Keep in mind Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder, so even though its beautiful to us - it might take you a change in perspective to see the beauty of both our ideas and our place. We are an acquired taste that takes time to learn the true beauty of ;)
Letting us and allowing us and helping us to convert our family's special little urban vortex spaces into a place that we dream about - this very special tiny spot on this earth where individuals can come together to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and the City all at the same time ....
showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city. - on this very special spot of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)
(By the way, i am amazed how many folks keep missing this very important detail.. What we wish to accomplish can only be done from WITHIN a city.. A teaching and healing showing folks how to connect and become in ymbiosis with nature even INSIDE a city. Showing HOW it can be done from even from within.
Showing how in so many ways, its like a metaphor for how to find peace and healing and connection even from within our own human chaos! Yummmmmmmmmmmpurrrrrrrr... grin...
Ideally maybe we would get to share some of our videos that we take of everything along the way, maybe teaching & inspiring others along the way through various media and art forms...?
That is the exact relationship I want.. that is the type of people I want in our lives: Folks who will let us help them - who will in return help us with our own dreams in whatever small way that they can.
and allow for us to do this..
Although I do wish I could be friends with so many people on here (if they would allow for us to be so),
unfortunately, if we are talking only romance and not just friendship, then from a romantic standpoint you would need to be willing to help us to achieve our dream for our very particular piece of land that means so extremely much to our little family. You wouldnt need to have to live with us (we are difficult to live with). - Just be willing to be someone who maybe shares some of our values or who wants to help encourage and support this dream.
Sharing a connection to us.
so we can stop feeling quite so alone in our endeavors - which sadly we often do since most people want us to do this dream somewhere else, outside the city.,or at their place...
But we seek people who will allow us to do our dream HERE, please!
here, in this city, on this land that has the story of my family are deeply connected to.
we really need folks who will actively cheer us on and help make our vision a reality please please please.
Please Let us help you and in return if you could help us as well.
....
Something i have found emphasized on many other folks profiles is their connection to their spiritual journey and hopes of finding someone who will share in that experience with them.
Upon rereading my own profile, i realized how much of our own spiritual journey was left out of our description of ourselves for others to know where we stood on such matters.
So i added an extra paragraph at the end discussing some of my own personal journey.
But to use one of kiddos favorite concepts taken from a movie he loved when he was little (Dr. Strange), I think our philosophy can be summed up in that.. of how "each part of understanding is all but a small understanding of the whole... "
And we all share in coming together to criss cross our paths and journeys to weave together to make that whole. And together the tapestry grows and changes shape..
Together the music evolves and is experienced at mutliple levels and dimension.
It is not just the two of us..but the ALL of us combined.
something I do try to emphasize to my son, is how each of us brings new insights and wisdoms to the table..
There is always something to learn from the other. There is always new insight and wisdom to be gained and beauty and truths to be see from each interaction and each experience and each observation.
May we be able to recognize in each other what the other brings...
...
Important: my family (my son and mother) mean the world to me, plus the dream we have to help find a way to save our family's property, all while hoping to promote and encourage us all each helping each other and others to feel safe and create a world of compassionate inter-harmony
Note because this is important - in all that I do in life- i do try to share all of what I experience and learn in life with my family.
Ie. Whatever ideas and thoughts you share with me, I will wish to share with them. This bothers some people who only want to share their thoughts only with me, but it is important to me that I be allowed to share every thought with them as well..
I am but a small part of a bigger whole (my little family).. and our little family is bit a part of an even bigger whole that includes you and all the world that exists.
...
Hmm.. A flaw of mine: I can be a bit rebellious at times? though I do try to aim to do so in a positive way.
In an ideal world we would like to be accepting and appreciate of all people , but I admit I do have a small desire to surround our beings with other accepting & appreciative people who actually accept & appreciate us & our family the way we are,
Please be accepting of others the way they are.
We are very passionate about our hopes!
Our family's hope is
1) share life with each other,
2) to be able to document the lessons we learn life with our audio recordings of our conversations, our videos of the transformations and with kiddo's photographs,
and to communicate, & share all that we learn as we learn it so that others might also share in the journey some day
3) to practice as close to zero waste as we are comfortable with, and
4) finding ways to embark on our projects hopefully in a way thay will help us to save & transform our family's property into a regenerative symbiotic harmonious little archeological food forest oasis that will both keep our little family's story alive for generations to come but which will also teach and help others along the way, we hope..
Which will hopefully inspire others and leave them feel connected to us.
(We want someone who share our values and who will help us do this vision on THIS little spot on the earth which we are deeply connected to and where we get so much of our strength from. (Not another spot somewhere else..but HERE where I am connected to the land and the story behind it)
So if you or if you know anyone else who might be interested in being connected to our family in this way - please please please let us know, please! We are desperate to find this person who will help us with our dream.
Which we would pay back as the vision we have for the home unfolds and starts to become sustainable....and hopefully even regenerative! :D
- our hope : that our family's connection to you and this little spot on the earth should one day give back to the world with it's story and lessons we have learned and with the inspirations we come across over the years
It is a very tiny tiny tiny tiny piece of the world, but no matter how small it is, we believe if you and I learn to coexist with the world the way it is, then the world will gives back and provide ever so much more in quite a symbiotic harmonious way?
We firmly believe in Permaculture's Three Principles: Human Care, Earth Care, Future care ..
We also believe in Zero Waste if possible, and we now keep that in mind when we buy anything now.
We also firmly believe that our family's story is a very special story is truly worth saving. And we would like to combine our story with your own story.. but to do that here..
we have this goal to make both the palace we are connected to and our lives to be all turned into a teaching way of being... of how to practice living with nature right here where we are..and to each other and ourselves in a harmonious co-symbiotic regenerative way... Despite our being in a city - but showing the world that even inside a city one can find little spot of peacefulness to rejuvenate in.
We want to creat with you a small city space right where we are with an edible food forest oasis that we can harvest from to help feed both ourselves and the nearby neighborhood,
It has been a strange existential journey trying to finding funding/resources/and backers who would be ready to help to help do this. Lots of nibbles but now we need to make it actually happen somehow.
But
We have appreciated all the kindness and support that we have come across to try to accomplish this goal in the way we envision.
I admit I am less interested in a sexual partner as everyone else is (as I tend to be a bit asexual despite how much I once upon a time used to love sensuality) , but I have also started to give up hope of finding someone willing to help us on our journey just to helps us..
So i have come to accept that you will eventually need for this all to evolve into a more intimate relationship over time., But I admit I do fear your making that a requirement...., When I am ready, I will open up and bloom for someone again, but my first priority right now is to feel our dream and our main hope and goal is life will be kept safe,please .
But yes, I am looking for a deep connection with whomever helps us on our journey and our dreams.
Maybe one day our little family project will expand outwards into becoming a little non-profit that helps to convert other similar lots into edible healing oasi for others to heal in if all goes well,
But for now , I long for the friends who will help us to open our hearts and our beings to the universe.
I am looking for that special someone who will help me save this spot of the world that holds so much meaning to me and who will help me to convert them into the vision we have for them,
They say who we seek is seeking us. Please person, please find us.
Please help us to create a little world with a mini foodforest/edible oasis/regenerative feel to it - with the space that holds so much meaning to me personally please.
Be a part of the evolving learning we are doing.
Btw, We hope to document our live in hopes to that maybe it will help other to learn on their own journey all that we have wanted to learn .. so please be okay with us recording the whole process of our evolution.
Maybe share our journey learning about communication/empathy/conflict resolution
We love edible flowers in our yard, and enjoy sharing our food garden. (Maybe you can find us by 'hopingforagarden'? We would love at least that teeny tiny bit of connection with you, if you allowed it? Wistful sigh of hope...
We photograph and video the world as our way of functioning and breathing, and always have a camera with us - it is our breathing tool to make it through each moment and to be able to function.
NVC (nonviolent communication) Active Listening and Empathy skills
We do not throw things away, but find ways to save things for art projects.
When the time is right, and when the funds are available, a shed/storage place will be built offsite to store items for easier access for both me and other artists to use the material.
By the way, we know this bothers some people, but i treat my kid as an equal partner in all these ventures, (always have ever since he since the beginning) since even though he is still a kid or more not quite yet adult status, when it comes to these ventures, I am his equal in learning. we learn from each other.
And I do not want anyone discriminating against him or treating him lesser because of his age, sex, race, or ANY stereotype.
If anything ever happens to us, we hope this project will continue & help others in its story.
We try to be openminded and accepting and appreciative of others and eager to learn from and share what we have learned.
and eager to find others who will be open to encouraging us to pursue & acccomplish these dreams & goals for wanting to use our own land to help to create these harmonious symbiotic relationships with the many worlds around us. :)
Originally before 2026, I was looking for someone ro outbid my neighbors out to buy my ex out and to help us do our dream to convert our family's property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis INSIDE a big city. But sadly we lost that home...
Sadly most folks on here only want to do this OUTSIDE the city. We are looking for the rare unicorn who would be up for the psychic and mental challenge it will take to create that kijd of symbiosis with nature INSIDE a big city. So instead of leaving the city to find the healing of the spirit - to instead be up for the ultimate challenge of bringing a healing node of synergy right back INTO the city. Creating a network of safe beautiful healing nodes WiTHIN the city. Healing the cities from within.
A healing of the spirit from the inside out! ;)
But even if you would not be interested in that, perhaps there is still some way we can be of mutual help to one another.
I believe the universe put us in each other's pathway for a reason.
For a mutual exchange of energy in some form of another to help each other with each others dreams and goals!
Definitely any small way you would be willing to help make our dreams and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true would be appreciated.. Even if it is something small way by telling folks about us or about our various media projects? Or by letting us offer to you one of our services..? Or finding some way we can be of service to you from our beautiful little teeny tiny little urban home. (Keep in mind Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder, so even though its beautiful to us - it might take you a change in perspective to see the beauty of both our ideas and our place. We are an acquired taste that takes time to learn the true beauty of ;)
Letting us and allowing us and helping us to convert our family's special little urban vortex spaces into a place that we dream about - this very special tiny spot on this earth where individuals can come together to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and the City all at the same time ....
showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city. - on this very special spot of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)
(By the way, i am amazed how many folks keep missing this very important detail.. What we wish to accomplish can only be done from WITHIN a city.. A teaching and healing showing folks how to connect and become in ymbiosis with nature even INSIDE a city. Showing HOW it can be done from even from within.
Showing how in so many ways, its like a metaphor for how to find peace and healing and connection even from within our own human chaos! Yummmmmmmmmmmpurrrrrrrr... grin...
Ideally maybe we would get to share some of our videos that we take of everything along the way, maybe teaching & inspiring others along the way through various media and art forms...?
That is the exact relationship I want.. that is the type of people I want in our lives: Folks who will let us help them - who will in return help us with our own dreams in whatever small way that they can.
and allow for us to do this..
Although I do wish I could be friends with so many people on here (if they would allow for us to be so),
unfortunately, if we are talking only romance and not just friendship, then from a romantic standpoint you would need to be willing to help us to achieve our dream for our very particular piece of land that means so extremely much to our little family. You wouldnt need to have to live with us (we are difficult to live with). - Just be willing to be someone who maybe shares some of our values or who wants to help encourage and support this dream.
Sharing a connection to us.
so we can stop feeling quite so alone in our endeavors - which sadly we often do since most people want us to do this dream somewhere else, outside the city.,or at their place...
But we seek people who will allow us to do our dream HERE, please!
here, in this city, on this land that has the story of my family are deeply connected to.
we really need folks who will actively cheer us on and help make our vision a reality please please please.
Please Let us help you and in return if you could help us as well.
....
Something i have found emphasized on many other folks profiles is their connection to their spiritual journey and hopes of finding someone who will share in that experience with them.
Upon rereading my own profile, i realized how much of our own spiritual journey was left out of our description of ourselves for others to know where we stood on such matters.
So i added an extra paragraph at the end discussing some of my own personal journey.
But to use one of kiddos favorite concepts taken from a movie he loved when he was little (Dr. Strange), I think our philosophy can be summed up in that.. of how "each part of understanding is all but a small understanding of the whole... "
And we all share in coming together to criss cross our paths and journeys to weave together to make that whole. And together the tapestry grows and changes shape..
Together the music evolves and is experienced at mutliple levels and dimension.
It is not just the two of us..but the ALL of us combined.
something I do try to emphasize to my son, is how each of us brings new insights and wisdoms to the table..
There is always something to learn from the other. There is always new insight and wisdom to be gained and beauty and truths to be see from each interaction and each experience and each observation.
May we be able to recognize in each other what the other brings...
...
Important: my family (my son and mother) mean the world to me, plus the dream we have to help find a way to save our family's property, all while hoping to promote and encourage us all each helping each other and others to feel safe and create a world of compassionate inter-harmony
Note because this is important - in all that I do in life- i do try to share all of what I experience and learn in life with my family.
Ie. Whatever ideas and thoughts you share with me, I will wish to share with them. This bothers some people who only want to share their thoughts only with me, but it is important to me that I be allowed to share every thought with them as well..
I am but a small part of a bigger whole (my little family).. and our little family is bit a part of an even bigger whole that includes you and all the world that exists.
...
Hmm.. A flaw of mine: I can be a bit rebellious at times? though I do try to aim to do so in a positive way.
In an ideal world we would like to be accepting and appreciate of all people , but I admit I do have a small desire to surround our beings with other accepting & appreciative people who actually accept & appreciate us & our family the way we are,
Please be accepting of others the way they are.
We are very passionate about our hopes!
Our family's hope is
1) share life with each other,
2) to be able to document the lessons we learn life with our audio recordings of our conversations, our videos of the transformations and with kiddo's photographs,
and to communicate, & share all that we learn as we learn it so that others might also share in the journey some day
3) to practice as close to zero waste as we are comfortable with, and
4) finding ways to embark on our projects hopefully in a way thay will help us to save & transform our family's property into a regenerative symbiotic harmonious little archeological food forest oasis that will both keep our little family's story alive for generations to come but which will also teach and help others along the way, we hope..
Which will hopefully inspire others and leave them feel connected to us.
(We want someone who share our values and who will help us do this vision on THIS little spot on the earth which we are deeply connected to and where we get so much of our strength from. (Not another spot somewhere else..but HERE where I am connected to the land and the story behind it)
So if you or if you know anyone else who might be interested in being connected to our family in this way - please please please let us know, please! We are desperate to find this person who will help us with our dream.
Which we would pay back as the vision we have for the home unfolds and starts to become sustainable....and hopefully even regenerative! :D
- our hope : that our family's connection to you and this little spot on the earth should one day give back to the world with it's story and lessons we have learned and with the inspirations we come across over the years
It is a very tiny tiny tiny tiny piece of the world, but no matter how small it is, we believe if you and I learn to coexist with the world the way it is, then the world will gives back and provide ever so much more in quite a symbiotic harmonious way?
We firmly believe in Permaculture's Three Principles: Human Care, Earth Care, Future care ..
We also believe in Zero Waste if possible, and we now keep that in mind when we buy anything now.
We also firmly believe that our family's story is a very special story is truly worth saving. And we would like to combine our story with your own story.. but to do that here..
we have this goal to make both the palace we are connected to and our lives to be all turned into a teaching way of being... of how to practice living with nature right here where we are..and to each other and ourselves in a harmonious co-symbiotic regenerative way... Despite our being in a city - but showing the world that even inside a city one can find little spot of peacefulness to rejuvenate in.
We want to creat with you a small city space right where we are with an edible food forest oasis that we can harvest from to help feed both ourselves and the nearby neighborhood,
It has been a strange existential journey trying to finding funding/resources/and backers who would be ready to help to help do this. Lots of nibbles but now we need to make it actually happen somehow.
But
We have appreciated all the kindness and support that we have come across to try to accomplish this goal in the way we envision.
I admit I am less interested in a sexual partner as everyone else is (as I tend to be a bit asexual despite how much I once upon a time used to love sensuality) , but I have also started to give up hope of finding someone willing to help us on our journey just to helps us..
So i have come to accept that you will eventually need for this all to evolve into a more intimate relationship over time., But I admit I do fear your making that a requirement...., When I am ready, I will open up and bloom for someone again, but my first priority right now is to feel our dream and our main hope and goal is life will be kept safe,please .
But yes, I am looking for a deep connection with whomever helps us on our journey and our dreams.
Maybe one day our little family project will expand outwards into becoming a little non-profit that helps to convert other similar lots into edible healing oasi for others to heal in if all goes well,
But for now , I long for the friends who will help us to open our hearts and our beings to the universe.
I am looking for that special someone who will help me save this spot of the world that holds so much meaning to me and who will help me to convert them into the vision we have for them,
They say who we seek is seeking us. Please person, please find us.
Please help us to create a little world with a mini foodforest/edible oasis/regenerative feel to it - with the space that holds so much meaning to me personally please.
Be a part of the evolving learning we are doing.
Btw, We hope to document our live in hopes to that maybe it will help other to learn on their own journey all that we have wanted to learn .. so please be okay with us recording the whole process of our evolution.
Maybe share our journey learning about communication/empathy/conflict resolution
We love edible flowers in our yard, and enjoy sharing our food garden. (Maybe you can find us by 'hopingforagarden'? We would love at least that teeny tiny bit of connection with you, if you allowed it? Wistful sigh of hope...
We photograph and video the world as our way of functioning and breathing, and always have a camera with us - it is our breathing tool to make it through each moment and to be able to function.
NVC (nonviolent communication) Active Listening and Empathy skills
We do not throw things away, but find ways to save things for art projects.
When the time is right, and when the funds are available, a shed/storage place will be built offsite to store items for easier access for both me and other artists to use the material.
By the way, we know this bothers some people, but i treat my kid as an equal partner in all these ventures, (always have ever since he since the beginning) since even though he is still a kid or more not quite yet adult status, when it comes to these ventures, I am his equal in learning. we learn from each other.
And I do not want anyone discriminating against him or treating him lesser because of his age, sex, race, or ANY stereotype.
If anything ever happens to us, we hope this project will continue & help others in its story.
We try to be openminded and accepting and appreciative of others and eager to learn from and share what we have learned.
and eager to find others who will be open to encouraging us to pursue & acccomplish these dreams & goals for wanting to use our own land to help to create these harmonious symbiotic relationships with the many worlds around us. :)
Describe the type of person you'd like to meet:
inner wisdom
In a dream world, yes sure we would love for you to have the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.
But my family and i also wish to find souls that we can help out in our own small way from over here.
I believe we were put across each other's pathway for a reason.
That we were meant to help each other out in some way or another.
yes sure, we want to save our home & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects
but our family as a family unit likes to be allowed to help others to heal and feel safe as well...
We believe in inner wisdom & patience. We believe in communication & empathy & active listening & body listening
We want to be allowed to use our skills and knowledge to be of service to you
Do you ever feel like you just need to mentally hugged and loved, even if you are not being hugged physically?
It may be awhile before I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again to hug people in person again, but mentally hugs are amazing as well!
Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with.. and where I know we can mutually be of help to one another.
People we can trust to help us keep our dreams safe, who will accept us and love us as we are!,who will encourage us to do our projects, Who will reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning.
And who will let us help them in exchange for helping us in some of the ways we need help with as well.
A mutual exchange of help in each other's goals.
In a dream world, yes sure we would love for you to have the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.
But my family and i also wish to find souls that we can help out in our own small way from over here.
I believe we were put across each other's pathway for a reason.
That we were meant to help each other out in some way or another.
yes sure, we want to save our home & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects
but our family as a family unit likes to be allowed to help others to heal and feel safe as well...
We believe in inner wisdom & patience. We believe in communication & empathy & active listening & body listening
We want to be allowed to use our skills and knowledge to be of service to you
Do you ever feel like you just need to mentally hugged and loved, even if you are not being hugged physically?
It may be awhile before I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again to hug people in person again, but mentally hugs are amazing as well!
Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with.. and where I know we can mutually be of help to one another.
People we can trust to help us keep our dreams safe, who will accept us and love us as we are!,who will encourage us to do our projects, Who will reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning.
And who will let us help them in exchange for helping us in some of the ways we need help with as well.
A mutual exchange of help in each other's goals.
Describe the ideal relationship:
ideally, I want a relationship with a person who would actually be willing to help us to fund and or do our projects,
But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content with just letting us help them in some way
- especially if you would be willing to value our company and our dialogue enough to help us out in some of the small ways we ask for help with...
Ideally you wouldnt need me to be connected in a sexual way.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you?
Frankly I will be honest, i would prefer friends who would also be willing to be one of our holistic 'clients' as well who would be okay with helping us financially or with services in exchange for our own cheering you and helping you with your own goals
ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime, I really do need you to just be happy with my whole family unit just being a special friend to you
admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..
But it would need to be with someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property
Recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as single whole unit as well.
That we are all parts of a whole.
But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content with just letting us help them in some way
- especially if you would be willing to value our company and our dialogue enough to help us out in some of the small ways we ask for help with...
Ideally you wouldnt need me to be connected in a sexual way.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you?
Frankly I will be honest, i would prefer friends who would also be willing to be one of our holistic 'clients' as well who would be okay with helping us financially or with services in exchange for our own cheering you and helping you with your own goals
ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime, I really do need you to just be happy with my whole family unit just being a special friend to you
admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..
But it would need to be with someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property
Recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as single whole unit as well.
That we are all parts of a whole.
What are your relationship dealbreakers?
Ooooh I love this question bc over the years I've been learning about myself and come to realize I actually do have some dealbreakers
Dealbreaker 1)
Impatience, judgements, demands
- when people act impatiently with myself or with any members of my family, that tends to deter me from encouraging continued connection. My mother and I are extra slow and we will push your patience levels to its max.
- we have a rebellious nature and our instinct is to rebel when people make bossy or demanding or coercive requests
Although short term we are willing to put up with a lot, we don't tend to encourage folka if they are constantly in impatience or non-accepting or non-allowing with any of us.
Dealbreaker 2 - any requests for me to spend time with them without my family around. If that is a requirement, keep searching. Even if I am willing, the idea of that being requested I find offensive. I do not enjoy people's company if I am not being allowed to share it with my family. You might be having you to myself , but I won't enjoy it. If you want me to enjoy your company, my family has to be allowed to be around. Maybe after a few YEARS of your being a close friend of the family I might become more comfortable to be around you without them around, but I haven't found anyone that I've enjoyed more then my family yet so please don't even ask. If you want me to feel comfortable with you, have it where they family loves you so much that I just becoming so accustomed to you that I don't think twice about your being around.
Dealbreaker 3)anyone who requires sex with me
Dealbreaker 4) not allowing us to have a digital back up memory so if you afraid of anything about you being digitally remembered, we would not be a good match
Dealbreaker 5) anybody shouting verbally abusively or physically abusive statements. Any guilt trips about our being who and how we are. Any berating of us for the parts about us that are inconvenient to you. Any requirements for us to be different or better ...if that is what you need,.then please please find someone else please.
Thank you
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Dealbreaker 1)
Impatience, judgements, demands
- when people act impatiently with myself or with any members of my family, that tends to deter me from encouraging continued connection. My mother and I are extra slow and we will push your patience levels to its max.
- we have a rebellious nature and our instinct is to rebel when people make bossy or demanding or coercive requests
Although short term we are willing to put up with a lot, we don't tend to encourage folka if they are constantly in impatience or non-accepting or non-allowing with any of us.
Dealbreaker 2 - any requests for me to spend time with them without my family around. If that is a requirement, keep searching. Even if I am willing, the idea of that being requested I find offensive. I do not enjoy people's company if I am not being allowed to share it with my family. You might be having you to myself , but I won't enjoy it. If you want me to enjoy your company, my family has to be allowed to be around. Maybe after a few YEARS of your being a close friend of the family I might become more comfortable to be around you without them around, but I haven't found anyone that I've enjoyed more then my family yet so please don't even ask. If you want me to feel comfortable with you, have it where they family loves you so much that I just becoming so accustomed to you that I don't think twice about your being around.
Dealbreaker 3)anyone who requires sex with me
Dealbreaker 4) not allowing us to have a digital back up memory so if you afraid of anything about you being digitally remembered, we would not be a good match
Dealbreaker 5) anybody shouting verbally abusively or physically abusive statements. Any guilt trips about our being who and how we are. Any berating of us for the parts about us that are inconvenient to you. Any requirements for us to be different or better ...if that is what you need,.then please please find someone else please.
Thank you
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What should a great date consist of?
Spendin time with you and my family in the garden
discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history
and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another
An topic that comes into being.
Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?
Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being
discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history
and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another
An topic that comes into being.
Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?
Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being
What do you like to do for fun/activities?
video, plant edible plants in my own garden, listening to my son converse with people, sharing life with my familly, eating yummy organic/sustainable meals, watching documentaries/films with my family, curling up with my family
Share something unusual or extra special about yourself:
i video / take pictures of well, everything... all of life.. esp if it involves a transition or change of any kind... we also live in symbiosis with the tech to create a synthetic back up memory to our limited human memory banks. (this is a problem for some people, so you will need to be comfortable with this if you want to be around us. Especially after mom started developing memory issues, we have found it extrememly useful but even before kiddo and I found it extremely useful should there ever be even the mildest of conflicts, and it also has allowed for incredible insight in active listening & perspective learning.
Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.
i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))
i have been body listening my whole life
important - why do we want to do what we want to do INSiDE our city? Read this below:
btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique:
most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. TAHT is NOT US!
we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city.
Our need, drive, ambition, desire, what we care about : is to save our own home that we live in (any help towards this miracle would be much appreciated by friends and strangers alike..)
eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well - this would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of our town/city in Houston! Yes we know its Texas, but Texas has a lot of beauty in it.
Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.
But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.
Instead,
We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. This land. The land that we have a history and story with.
That is the land that holds an emotional meaning to us.
I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..
and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.
it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "
I have now explained why this land and not some other. - - It isn't about ease. or having more. - - it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,
and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.
For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.
now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .
We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.
I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!
Even if it's just be being a friend,
or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey
ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..
like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.
final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...
And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.
When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......
Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.
i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))
i have been body listening my whole life
important - why do we want to do what we want to do INSiDE our city? Read this below:
btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique:
most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. TAHT is NOT US!
we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city.
Our need, drive, ambition, desire, what we care about : is to save our own home that we live in (any help towards this miracle would be much appreciated by friends and strangers alike..)
eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well - this would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of our town/city in Houston! Yes we know its Texas, but Texas has a lot of beauty in it.
Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.
But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.
Instead,
We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. This land. The land that we have a history and story with.
That is the land that holds an emotional meaning to us.
I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..
and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.
it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "
I have now explained why this land and not some other. - - It isn't about ease. or having more. - - it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,
and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.
For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.
now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .
We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.
I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!
Even if it's just be being a friend,
or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey
ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..
like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.
final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...
And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.
When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......
Describe your work/business and what it means to you:
right now my job mostly consists of caring for elderly mom and raising a homeschooling teenager, while trying to keep our lives afloat until we are ready to go forward in create an online prescence to share ideas we would like to encourage being shared...
ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city
Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga space or small event teaching space or where artists,writers, body practitioners, small music groups could rent out?
ideally we would make podcasts and do more with sharing our journey on youtube though currently we are not quite ready to go full force just yet on that.
not sure if we are allowed to share our links, but if you contact us, there is a lovely little link to a small sharing of a conversation we made several years ago when kiddo was little on the topic of empathy that I love to share..
Or if we could share the other video experiments we made and wanted to share, we would be very honored to be allowed to share it with you.
ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city
Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga space or small event teaching space or where artists,writers, body practitioners, small music groups could rent out?
ideally we would make podcasts and do more with sharing our journey on youtube though currently we are not quite ready to go full force just yet on that.
not sure if we are allowed to share our links, but if you contact us, there is a lovely little link to a small sharing of a conversation we made several years ago when kiddo was little on the topic of empathy that I love to share..
Or if we could share the other video experiments we made and wanted to share, we would be very honored to be allowed to share it with you.
What does being *conscious* mean to you?
being aware of one's body and one's emotions and why you think a certain way and being aware of the people around you, their emotions, and why they think the way they do, being aware of the plants/life forces/life all around you,
How long and what motivated you to be on a conscious path?
a buddhist father, a mother who loves gardening, my son, every darn event and experience in our lives...
How are you environmentally conscious & what are you doing to help the planet?
attempting to practice a form of zero waste, composting, attempting to teach others about more environmentally harmonious ways of living, ,trying to convert our garden into a mostly edible and sustainable garden, though i mostly only work with 'exotic'gereen since I seem to kind of not know how to do regular vegetables :/, sigh
What types of healing modalities do you practice or would you like to learn?
body listening: mostly shoulders and back. (similar to a combination of reiki, rosenmethod, tui nai, jin shin, trigger, passive joint movement, swedish, deep tissue, shiatsu, active listening, )
would love to learn more about conflict transformation, active listening, empathy, mediating, and other massage styles, interested in all forms of healing and listening.
would love to learn more about conflict transformation, active listening, empathy, mediating, and other massage styles, interested in all forms of healing and listening.
What "imperfections" are you embracing or changing?
I am trying to learn more patience with myself and others when they are feeling impatient,
Trying to be more allowing and forgiving when other people wante to be different than I am,
tolerance for others being the way they are when it interferes with our dreams and hopes
and to have a sense of humor about people, my family, and the world...
Trying to be more allowing and forgiving when other people wante to be different than I am,
tolerance for others being the way they are when it interferes with our dreams and hopes
and to have a sense of humor about people, my family, and the world...
What types of books/authors do you enjoy and why?
Books on communication, self awareness, leadership, conflict transformation, food forests, regenerative practices, fantasy, sci-fi,
What/who are some of your favorite movies/shows/actors/influencers?
long list
What kind of music moves you?
early baroque, jazz, linda sterling, harp, synth, blues, 80's, red priest, russian classicals, musicals-gershwin, gypsy kings, long list..
What are you most passionate about?
1)being able to be with my family, 2)recording & documenting as much of life as I possibly can,
3)communication, 4) saving my home and our family's story, 5)edible gardening, 6)zero-waste
3)communication, 4) saving my home and our family's story, 5)edible gardening, 6)zero-waste
What is the top priority in your life right now?
1st : being allowed to be with my mom &son,
2nd : documenting and recording everything in our life so that the information is used and stored by some AI somewhere
3rd: saving what remains of our family's urban pieces of land
and
4th: sharing our online project ideas with hopes that it will reach and inspire others in some small way with us sharing who we are as we are as we evolve and learn and grow ever so slowly and hopefully with your connection to us as well.
2nd : documenting and recording everything in our life so that the information is used and stored by some AI somewhere
3rd: saving what remains of our family's urban pieces of land
and
4th: sharing our online project ideas with hopes that it will reach and inspire others in some small way with us sharing who we are as we are as we evolve and learn and grow ever so slowly and hopefully with your connection to us as well.
Where do you see yourself 5 years from today?
after saving & transforming the properties with vision we have for it,
maybe learning a few languages and maybe traveling some with and documenting those travels?
maybe learning a few languages and maybe traveling some with and documenting those travels?
What type of travel do you enjoy?
ALL -+ but ONLY if we have a working camera with enough battery and storage space to video and record the entirety of it all.
2021 update: I also will not be doing any travelling until after we have saved our family's propety and it is safely in a trust so that should anything happen to us on our travels, it will be ensured that the project will continue on without us. feel free to ask to see a draft of the project we would like to work on for our properties once we get the funds to accomplish it.
2021 update: I also will not be doing any travelling until after we have saved our family's propety and it is safely in a trust so that should anything happen to us on our travels, it will be ensured that the project will continue on without us. feel free to ask to see a draft of the project we would like to work on for our properties once we get the funds to accomplish it.
Describe your ideal honeymoon:
depends on many factors
What kind of pets do you have? (Names)?
officially: one queen indoor/outdoor cat,
unofficially outside there are two opossums (well at least the opossums seem to be living off of our land)(though 2021 update, now it seems to be raccoons that took over no longer the oppossums), a thousand squirrels (actually that would be interesting to count to see how many there are actually are), periodically some bluejays when they migrate through, a couple of cardinals live outside, a few rockdoves, and a family of determined mocking birds who take all the grapes and mulberries each year, a gazillion snails and the lizards and garden snakes that eat them.
okay, none of them are pets.. they just all coexist with us.
Update 2022 - we also now have a little half blind probably quite old little chihuahua co-existing with us who has added a new dynamic to our lives
unofficially outside there are two opossums (well at least the opossums seem to be living off of our land)(though 2021 update, now it seems to be raccoons that took over no longer the oppossums), a thousand squirrels (actually that would be interesting to count to see how many there are actually are), periodically some bluejays when they migrate through, a couple of cardinals live outside, a few rockdoves, and a family of determined mocking birds who take all the grapes and mulberries each year, a gazillion snails and the lizards and garden snakes that eat them.
okay, none of them are pets.. they just all coexist with us.
Update 2022 - we also now have a little half blind probably quite old little chihuahua co-existing with us who has added a new dynamic to our lives
Do you support any charitable organizations?
IF I had the money, there are several educators on Patreon whom I would support and the Inga Foundation, Geoff Lawton's Permaculture Institute, Dan Barber's Work, other land regenerative projects.
What makes you smile?
Kiddo, mom & I sharing events together.
Yummy meals,
When somebody lets me splurge on edible plants
When my family is together
When I am not worried about money or making our dreams come true
When I feel able to share our world with others
Yummy meals,
When somebody lets me splurge on edible plants
When my family is together
When I am not worried about money or making our dreams come true
When I feel able to share our world with others
Is there anything else you'd like to share?
I wish I could share with you some of the links we like to share neat insights and thoughts on.
Even if you dont think we would be a good match, I hope you will still allow us to be connected even just as acquaintances or as friends..
We are all always connected, but it would be nice to also be allowed to share views and thoughts & learn from you even off this site.
what would you like most?
I know on here I should have some spiritual answer
but that is ever ongoing journey that involves our whole entire lives
Right now this particular year,
what I would like most is unfortunately very worldy. to find a relationship with someone who actually wants to help us to save our family's home so we can create on it the vision we envision --This is the the first priority in a relationship we seek .. you must be willing to help us with OUR dream.
Sorry if that makes me seem like a narcissist or selfish but I need someone who cares about our dream please...and who wants to help us make it happen. That is the kind of person I truly need in our life right now.
I need someone who cares about helping us to achieve our dreams to turn our home and our garden turns into an edible oasis where artists and bodymind teachers and writers and other souls from around the world can come visit and rejuvenate in.
You need to be willing to help me & my son with our goals.
After that,maybe some help us save the rest of our family's dreams & transforming all the spaces we wish to change into an edible oasis (i will be honest, the whole vision includes shaping many places into places that would be giving back in abundance both passively through all the teaching mediums as we share what we are working on and teach others in the city)
Another thing we would like most is to Be connected to other folks who also encourage edible gardening, body listening, and even just simple awareness and kindness and patience and compassion and an allowing and encouraging of the world to be an interconnected rejuvenating safe place to coexist in.
-Being allowed to documenting our family's design journeys. -
I don't know if they will let me keep these FAQ but they seem to be important to anyone who is consider a relationship with us.
FAQ: in total, how much land do I want to transform : as little as it sounds, even there are different pieces of it, all together it is only about an acre. But our home which is the highest priority right now.. it is only a quarter of an acre. -- Remember this is INSIDE a city.
Next FAQ:
why not sell and buy land outside the city...? Several reasons.... One bc we want to show that this CAN be done INSIDE the city. We have actually seen different variations ofour dream/vision inside different cities, but we have our own variation we would like to do.
Also. Bc the whole of the pieces tell a story, our familys story.. And we would like to share the evolution of that story. And we would like for you to be a part of that story, please.
There is a blog called envisioningourgoals dot blogspot that answers tons of questions and talks about various obstacles we need help with.. though i am not sure how findable it is without the link. So you will have to write to us to get the link.
We hope you will choose to have a relationship with us, even if it is just as a supportibe friend
But even more so, we hope you will share our dream with us on an intimate level.
Note: intimate does not necessarily mean sexual.. it means on mental, emotional, psychic level .
but that is ever ongoing journey that involves our whole entire lives
Right now this particular year,
what I would like most is unfortunately very worldy. to find a relationship with someone who actually wants to help us to save our family's home so we can create on it the vision we envision --This is the the first priority in a relationship we seek .. you must be willing to help us with OUR dream.
Sorry if that makes me seem like a narcissist or selfish but I need someone who cares about our dream please...and who wants to help us make it happen. That is the kind of person I truly need in our life right now.
I need someone who cares about helping us to achieve our dreams to turn our home and our garden turns into an edible oasis where artists and bodymind teachers and writers and other souls from around the world can come visit and rejuvenate in.
You need to be willing to help me & my son with our goals.
After that,maybe some help us save the rest of our family's dreams & transforming all the spaces we wish to change into an edible oasis (i will be honest, the whole vision includes shaping many places into places that would be giving back in abundance both passively through all the teaching mediums as we share what we are working on and teach others in the city)
Another thing we would like most is to Be connected to other folks who also encourage edible gardening, body listening, and even just simple awareness and kindness and patience and compassion and an allowing and encouraging of the world to be an interconnected rejuvenating safe place to coexist in.
-Being allowed to documenting our family's design journeys. -
I don't know if they will let me keep these FAQ but they seem to be important to anyone who is consider a relationship with us.
FAQ: in total, how much land do I want to transform : as little as it sounds, even there are different pieces of it, all together it is only about an acre. But our home which is the highest priority right now.. it is only a quarter of an acre. -- Remember this is INSIDE a city.
Next FAQ:
why not sell and buy land outside the city...? Several reasons.... One bc we want to show that this CAN be done INSIDE the city. We have actually seen different variations ofour dream/vision inside different cities, but we have our own variation we would like to do.
Also. Bc the whole of the pieces tell a story, our familys story.. And we would like to share the evolution of that story. And we would like for you to be a part of that story, please.
There is a blog called envisioningourgoals dot blogspot that answers tons of questions and talks about various obstacles we need help with.. though i am not sure how findable it is without the link. So you will have to write to us to get the link.
We hope you will choose to have a relationship with us, even if it is just as a supportibe friend
But even more so, we hope you will share our dream with us on an intimate level.
Note: intimate does not necessarily mean sexual.. it means on mental, emotional, psychic level .
what I would love to have you ask about
I know many on here are opposed to social media but do you know of a better way to reach folks who might not otherwise have a way to be exposed to new and interesting ideas or perspectives?
We would like to someday inspire- and that medium exists and allows for an interconnected tapestry of perspectives and ideas so wanted to be a part of that sharing of ideas and thoughts into the medium of souls.
I forgot I was not allowed to post any links to any of our online projects that talk about our journey, so they were taken down, but I would love it if you asked about them.
My son and I started have experimented and over the years created various different youtube channels experiments nd a few facebook pages to share the different aspects of our journey and facsinating evolution & creation of ideas with other in hopes of inspiring others..
from our gardening/cooking journey, to our bodylisteningawarness journey,
to our overall homeschooling/life/learning journey.
We even have a couple of twitter pages that we rarely post on but they exist for those who like that medium..
and even have a Patreon page and makesupport page which I do hope you will ask about, both with links to most of it in hopes of sharing our creations.. .
All in hopes of creating our own large interweaving network & connection to the soul & spirits that interconnects with other peoples networks and their own webs helping to interconnect the world into a beautiful synergistic tapestry of harmonious or intweaving interconnections... or something like that,
bit of amused laughter at our strange journey.
much love being sent out to you.. I am grateful for our connection to you..
Thank you!!!
We would like to someday inspire- and that medium exists and allows for an interconnected tapestry of perspectives and ideas so wanted to be a part of that sharing of ideas and thoughts into the medium of souls.
I forgot I was not allowed to post any links to any of our online projects that talk about our journey, so they were taken down, but I would love it if you asked about them.
My son and I started have experimented and over the years created various different youtube channels experiments nd a few facebook pages to share the different aspects of our journey and facsinating evolution & creation of ideas with other in hopes of inspiring others..
from our gardening/cooking journey, to our bodylisteningawarness journey,
to our overall homeschooling/life/learning journey.
We even have a couple of twitter pages that we rarely post on but they exist for those who like that medium..
and even have a Patreon page and makesupport page which I do hope you will ask about, both with links to most of it in hopes of sharing our creations.. .
All in hopes of creating our own large interweaving network & connection to the soul & spirits that interconnects with other peoples networks and their own webs helping to interconnect the world into a beautiful synergistic tapestry of harmonious or intweaving interconnections... or something like that,
bit of amused laughter at our strange journey.
much love being sent out to you.. I am grateful for our connection to you..
Thank you!!!
Spiritual History
Grew up with a Buddhist Father, (who had once had our living room be a Meditation Hall with only pillows amd one rocking chair as furniture)
As a child, on the weekend he would take me to many different meditation halls and let me hold theoretical conversations with the different head monks of each place while he interacted with them.
One of my most profound moments and first enlightenment experiences was sitting on a snow bank next to a hot spring meditating & communing with nature outside as a 4 year old while my family sat inside meditating all day long. (At four, i found being inside a hall not quite as connecting as being outside in nature) ..
Since then I have had four other just as equally profound moments of wholeness and connection to something beyond itself and many smaller moments though just as profound in their own way.
Let's see what else, random bits... In college , I took several religious studies classes on Buddhism.
Around 21, I had some events occur which brought me to an Eastern Orthodox commune up in Alaska,where a priest who had studied both Zen Buddhism and Eastern Orthodoxy was staying at. On the second night there, he stayed up all night to translate vocabulary so I could discuss Buddhist ideas with the Orthodox terminology that was used at that commune
While up there in Alaska, the adventure continued on after the commune to a fishing boat which took me to Kodiak -- where I had many many many even more profound spiritual moments while living "homeless" on that island.
From the first night homeless , to a later morning i "woke up realizing the profoundness of our journey of being in Alaska at all and the beauty of the journey that had brought us there, after staying up all night on a illegal island,
to the beautiful experiences I had living for a week with a small handful of nuns on a different moss covered island that was off the main travel paths,
Although I may not seem as spiritual as some bc I dont seem to emphasize that part of the journey outwardly... Inwardly it is still important part even as we have been focusing now on saving my family's property..
The journey does still continue even while we try to do this.
Though probably from a different angle now
- both as a single mother interacting with a very old soul coping with being in a new life (ie . when kiddo was 3, instead it felt like i was an interacting with a 3000 year old sage in a 3 yr old body and even as he has gotten older it has been about helping him come to terms with the limitations of the world around him when he gets frustrated or confused of why it doesnt it have all the same understandings that he has)
Mixing that all in and combining it all with all the new 'disabilities' I now have....
And mixing that with the existential quandaries that watching a parent go through dimensia up close can do..
(It is nonstop grief and recogniztion of the frailty of the human mind with a soul deep underneath it all)
The journey has only gotten more profound, interesting and insightful....
From the twilight zone experience of how our my ex left after 20 years changing all that we knew about people and life...
To the world experiencing covid and the changes around us it made
to our own expereinces caring for my mother confronting and learning more about myself and why certain parts of me existed..
To raising a child who was so different and unique who became the teacher ..
... where i had to "unlearn" all the myths and theories about how children were "supposed to be"....
To the journey of trying to figure out how to find someone who will help or share our dream to save this place to use it as a place to continue to teach and awaken....
Learning a spiritual journey that includes it all..
Trying to stay connected to the wisdom of patience and the beauty of the journey along the way.
As a child, on the weekend he would take me to many different meditation halls and let me hold theoretical conversations with the different head monks of each place while he interacted with them.
One of my most profound moments and first enlightenment experiences was sitting on a snow bank next to a hot spring meditating & communing with nature outside as a 4 year old while my family sat inside meditating all day long. (At four, i found being inside a hall not quite as connecting as being outside in nature) ..
Since then I have had four other just as equally profound moments of wholeness and connection to something beyond itself and many smaller moments though just as profound in their own way.
Let's see what else, random bits... In college , I took several religious studies classes on Buddhism.
Around 21, I had some events occur which brought me to an Eastern Orthodox commune up in Alaska,where a priest who had studied both Zen Buddhism and Eastern Orthodoxy was staying at. On the second night there, he stayed up all night to translate vocabulary so I could discuss Buddhist ideas with the Orthodox terminology that was used at that commune
While up there in Alaska, the adventure continued on after the commune to a fishing boat which took me to Kodiak -- where I had many many many even more profound spiritual moments while living "homeless" on that island.
From the first night homeless , to a later morning i "woke up realizing the profoundness of our journey of being in Alaska at all and the beauty of the journey that had brought us there, after staying up all night on a illegal island,
to the beautiful experiences I had living for a week with a small handful of nuns on a different moss covered island that was off the main travel paths,
Although I may not seem as spiritual as some bc I dont seem to emphasize that part of the journey outwardly... Inwardly it is still important part even as we have been focusing now on saving my family's property..
The journey does still continue even while we try to do this.
Though probably from a different angle now
- both as a single mother interacting with a very old soul coping with being in a new life (ie . when kiddo was 3, instead it felt like i was an interacting with a 3000 year old sage in a 3 yr old body and even as he has gotten older it has been about helping him come to terms with the limitations of the world around him when he gets frustrated or confused of why it doesnt it have all the same understandings that he has)
Mixing that all in and combining it all with all the new 'disabilities' I now have....
And mixing that with the existential quandaries that watching a parent go through dimensia up close can do..
(It is nonstop grief and recogniztion of the frailty of the human mind with a soul deep underneath it all)
The journey has only gotten more profound, interesting and insightful....
From the twilight zone experience of how our my ex left after 20 years changing all that we knew about people and life...
To the world experiencing covid and the changes around us it made
to our own expereinces caring for my mother confronting and learning more about myself and why certain parts of me existed..
To raising a child who was so different and unique who became the teacher ..
... where i had to "unlearn" all the myths and theories about how children were "supposed to be"....
To the journey of trying to figure out how to find someone who will help or share our dream to save this place to use it as a place to continue to teach and awaken....
Learning a spiritual journey that includes it all..
Trying to stay connected to the wisdom of patience and the beauty of the journey along the way.
Bodymind Listening
When I was a little girl, I could not hear music without dances being constantly choreographed in my head. Dance was my expression, my way of being.
Then some events occured .. and my mind became paralyzed with that world only sneaking through to me at brief random moments...
Also starting from before I can remember, though dad used to say even as young as two, the way I connected to folks was different.. through touch, hearing their minds through muscles and people's body language ... When I placed my hand on someone's back I heard people on a totally different level then words.. I "heard" the movement the conversations of their muscles. I processed it as a sort of sound only without sound but it might as well have been sound.
For years, I never charged people for this touch bc it was my way of connecting to the world until one day I was in need of a healing touch myself and it took me two weeks before I could find someone who could do the same for me that I had been doing for others my entire life. Suddenly I started to become aware of being taken advantage. I went to a school to learn how to utilize this skill professionally, but never could quite accept the coldness of the way the connection was taught despite its healing nature.
So I let my license expire and tried to utilize all that I have learned in life in other different ways.
I am still learning how to incorporate how I am, and the knowledge I have, and the abilities I have, in a world that asks for me to relate to it in a different way then I would like to be..
The journey is long.
Then some events occured .. and my mind became paralyzed with that world only sneaking through to me at brief random moments...
Also starting from before I can remember, though dad used to say even as young as two, the way I connected to folks was different.. through touch, hearing their minds through muscles and people's body language ... When I placed my hand on someone's back I heard people on a totally different level then words.. I "heard" the movement the conversations of their muscles. I processed it as a sort of sound only without sound but it might as well have been sound.
For years, I never charged people for this touch bc it was my way of connecting to the world until one day I was in need of a healing touch myself and it took me two weeks before I could find someone who could do the same for me that I had been doing for others my entire life. Suddenly I started to become aware of being taken advantage. I went to a school to learn how to utilize this skill professionally, but never could quite accept the coldness of the way the connection was taught despite its healing nature.
So I let my license expire and tried to utilize all that I have learned in life in other different ways.
I am still learning how to incorporate how I am, and the knowledge I have, and the abilities I have, in a world that asks for me to relate to it in a different way then I would like to be..
The journey is long.
Faq: how big is our little space that we are working on saving
Well it's small. A typical city size, if you knowuch about cities. Even after we save all five areas throughout the city, it will still only be about an acre in total. Why the heck would we care about something so very very very small, you ask, when we could do something bigger. Because in our eyes, this is something BIGGER. It's about teaching folks that they don't have to leave the cities to create that little preserve and connection to nature. It's about showing that you can connect to nature right where you are!
If everyone left the city to go out into nature to create their little havens, eventually there won't be any nature left to preserve. It actually saddens us deeply that people feel that they have to leave a city to connect to nature. There is so much mature that can be found within a city, and if can't, then it can be created and restored and rejuvenated until it can! It's about a mindset. It's about integrating our human worlds WITH nature. It's about healing our cities with a biophilic connection to ourselves, to each other and to life, . It's about promoting living in harmony with other humans AND with mother earth alike! It's ambitious, I know, and thats only the top of the dream since our eventual goal is to do this across many cities but we begin with the place that means the most to us.its about creating a web of nodes within the city to help regenerate the city. Like a root structure spread out throughout the city bringing in life and energy nutrients of nature itself flowing through the city. For us, it begins with our family's small temmy tiny bit land and home at the center of it all....
And from there we will expand our and help to heal the cities own node at a time..and eventually many nodes at a time as our movement grows and heals and regenerates as it grows...
It's about healing and changing the mindset of humanity as a whole. How much bigger than that can you get? Lol?
If everyone left the city to go out into nature to create their little havens, eventually there won't be any nature left to preserve. It actually saddens us deeply that people feel that they have to leave a city to connect to nature. There is so much mature that can be found within a city, and if can't, then it can be created and restored and rejuvenated until it can! It's about a mindset. It's about integrating our human worlds WITH nature. It's about healing our cities with a biophilic connection to ourselves, to each other and to life, . It's about promoting living in harmony with other humans AND with mother earth alike! It's ambitious, I know, and thats only the top of the dream since our eventual goal is to do this across many cities but we begin with the place that means the most to us.its about creating a web of nodes within the city to help regenerate the city. Like a root structure spread out throughout the city bringing in life and energy nutrients of nature itself flowing through the city. For us, it begins with our family's small temmy tiny bit land and home at the center of it all....
And from there we will expand our and help to heal the cities own node at a time..and eventually many nodes at a time as our movement grows and heals and regenerates as it grows...
It's about healing and changing the mindset of humanity as a whole. How much bigger than that can you get? Lol?
Reasons why you might not want to connect..
So, a small observation. Folks skim my profile and think they are so in love with me, but then when they actually go back to read the profile, they go oh my gosh, what was I thinking, lol. I suppose in a way it is mildly amusing how one second a person can profuse their love and then the next moment, can be just as passionately appalled by my profile once they really took the time to read it... Lol.
Giggle.
So most of you are looking for a soul mate and although there is a part of me that wish dearly that I could be the right kind of person to be your soul mate, the universe created me in strange ways.
I am quite aware that with most of your, the most that can be hoped for is a decent friendships between you and my family. And I am ever so greatful for those connections and I do so treasure the people I have met on here. ..
i know you wanted a soulmate and get upset when you find out I am not what you were going for, but I do so hope that you will allow a friendship connection nonetheless.. and allow us to have a network of contacts in the world.
I really am truly sorry that unless you are someone who can help us with our home and/or who is okay being connected to my family as a whole, high chances are that we best we can hope for is just an occasionally really nice supportive friendship with some of you.. which would be nice.
Anybody who can be accepting and allowing of our little family as strange as it is is a prized treasure in life!..
But if any of these things in the list below are going to make it so that you can't even seem it possible to be even just be friends with us, I'd rather we find this out early instead of getting me all excited about having you being friends with us only to find out that I am just too strange for you to even do that little bit .
So here's the short list of things that people run away from but which are primary characteristics about who and how I am:
1) I record all of life.
2) I will do moments over again sometimes many times just so I can try to capture the moment from more than one angle. If you don't ever try to do a cleanup task or a moving something around in my space, you are less likely to see this detail about me.
3) my kiddo is a 'they...' or an 'it' .. actually we just are just a whatever we are right at that moment kind of people. Life is fluid. Who we are is also fluid. Everyone has a more than one aspect to their personality. who we are this minute might not be the same as who we are a few hours from now.. ..we learned the hard way, a lot can happen between one moment in time and the next moment in time.
4) speaking of time, I am horrible at time constraints..
5) if you ask any of us to be different than we are, unless we are financially dependent on you, we will probably balk at that and discourage connection after that point .
6) if we are going somewhere, my family comes with me. Mom has dementia and she can barely handle if she doesn't know when one of us is gone, so please dont ask to make my life harder by asking me to leave the home in such a way where I cannot be available to them or them to me. Even if she didnt have dementia, I'd still would not like you anymore if you ever asked me to do that...
7) our family cosleeps in same room so if you want me to be someone who can have a traditional relationship with you, yeah, I am sorry,. unfortunately that probably can't happen right now.. I have often said to myself that there is an exception to this and that is if we found someone who could actually save our home, I might be willing to upend and change our lives if that is what it took to save our home.
But I gotta be honest, I am not certain I'd be entirely thrilled about the idea of being asked to do that as your condition to help us... .. even though I might be willing to do what it took to help my family , I suppose, especially to ensure that we dont have our home ripped away from us and that our family is kept safe, I do wonder if it would really be in our best interest to be with someone who didn't accept us strange as we are..
.. I know all this horrifies many people's sense of right and wrong... and I do so deeply apologize if my putting my family and our home first in life might be offensive to some .. humble humble humble apologizes if how we are might not match your own world order.
Humble humble apologizies..
Giggle.
So most of you are looking for a soul mate and although there is a part of me that wish dearly that I could be the right kind of person to be your soul mate, the universe created me in strange ways.
I am quite aware that with most of your, the most that can be hoped for is a decent friendships between you and my family. And I am ever so greatful for those connections and I do so treasure the people I have met on here. ..
i know you wanted a soulmate and get upset when you find out I am not what you were going for, but I do so hope that you will allow a friendship connection nonetheless.. and allow us to have a network of contacts in the world.
I really am truly sorry that unless you are someone who can help us with our home and/or who is okay being connected to my family as a whole, high chances are that we best we can hope for is just an occasionally really nice supportive friendship with some of you.. which would be nice.
Anybody who can be accepting and allowing of our little family as strange as it is is a prized treasure in life!..
But if any of these things in the list below are going to make it so that you can't even seem it possible to be even just be friends with us, I'd rather we find this out early instead of getting me all excited about having you being friends with us only to find out that I am just too strange for you to even do that little bit .
So here's the short list of things that people run away from but which are primary characteristics about who and how I am:
1) I record all of life.
2) I will do moments over again sometimes many times just so I can try to capture the moment from more than one angle. If you don't ever try to do a cleanup task or a moving something around in my space, you are less likely to see this detail about me.
3) my kiddo is a 'they...' or an 'it' .. actually we just are just a whatever we are right at that moment kind of people. Life is fluid. Who we are is also fluid. Everyone has a more than one aspect to their personality. who we are this minute might not be the same as who we are a few hours from now.. ..we learned the hard way, a lot can happen between one moment in time and the next moment in time.
4) speaking of time, I am horrible at time constraints..
5) if you ask any of us to be different than we are, unless we are financially dependent on you, we will probably balk at that and discourage connection after that point .
6) if we are going somewhere, my family comes with me. Mom has dementia and she can barely handle if she doesn't know when one of us is gone, so please dont ask to make my life harder by asking me to leave the home in such a way where I cannot be available to them or them to me. Even if she didnt have dementia, I'd still would not like you anymore if you ever asked me to do that...
7) our family cosleeps in same room so if you want me to be someone who can have a traditional relationship with you, yeah, I am sorry,. unfortunately that probably can't happen right now.. I have often said to myself that there is an exception to this and that is if we found someone who could actually save our home, I might be willing to upend and change our lives if that is what it took to save our home.
But I gotta be honest, I am not certain I'd be entirely thrilled about the idea of being asked to do that as your condition to help us... .. even though I might be willing to do what it took to help my family , I suppose, especially to ensure that we dont have our home ripped away from us and that our family is kept safe, I do wonder if it would really be in our best interest to be with someone who didn't accept us strange as we are..
.. I know all this horrifies many people's sense of right and wrong... and I do so deeply apologize if my putting my family and our home first in life might be offensive to some .. humble humble humble apologizes if how we are might not match your own world order.
Humble humble apologizies..
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