We just want your money!
If you don't have a lot of money, or "no money at all", then we just want $10 from you.
"But wait," you say, "we just told you we have no money"..
Did you know the the average beggar makes several hundred dollars a day in donations? Or so we were once told by a beggar. (Okay that's probably not true by the average beggar... But I do wonder sometimes, if they probably are lucky to make $20 on any given day.)
Hey if you have recently talked to a beggar and they have told you or if you have recently been one, will you share your opinion on the statistics in the comments section please.
By the way, if you do have tons of money, I don't just want $10 from you, I want several hundred dollars from you.
Actually if you really have TONS of money, then I want THOUSANDS of Dollars from you.
Money money money baby and I want some of yours.
"Why the fuck should I give you any money?" I've heard people say.
Okay the normal person would give a much more polite version of question. But seriously why should you?
What makes me so special that I think I should deserve some of your money?
Well a part of me, the doubting imposter part of me, goes well you shouldn't.
I am sure I could be probably give you a horribly very long list of reasons why I DON'T deserve your money
Chances are, it's probably a pretty similar list that you have for yourself of why no one should give you money (those occasional moments when you own brain got filled up with your own doubt and insecurities)
It always amuses me when self helps gurus ask the folks to raise their hand and say "who here has ever felt this thought or had this thought of xyz limiting factor" or of feeling not good enough, etc etc..?" The point they were trying to make is that that thought is not unique to you, that everyone has those thoughts."
But how many of us have the other thoughts:
"Well because I am worth it"
"You should give that money to me just bc I am enough simple as I am. I am worth it "simply bc I exist"..."
And then when you hear you self saying that thought, you think "oh shit, I must be some kind of narcissist," or "where do I get off thinking so highly of myself"?
Well .. you ARE worth it!
Whether you believe it or not, YOU are worth someone give you ten dollars even if it is just as a donation and for nothing else.
At some point maybe I can convince you that you are indeed worth $10, but then your brain goes okay maybe $10, but,
Well, okay what about $100 or $1000?
Why should anyone give me that much? Am I really worth that much an hour, a minute?
I am not worth that much?
(Not like those other people.....who do get paid that much a minute or an hour. Franky not even sure they are worth that much. But people pay them that much. How do I get them to pay me that much?)
Frankly well what I keep getting told by the self help guru folks that :
"Hey you are worth whatever you think you are worth!"
Well what if I think I am priceless? (Bc in truth , everyone really is priceless.)
Am I then again just being arrogant as all shit?
Isn't my worth determined by how much someone else says I am worth..?
isn't my actual worth determined by how much someone is willing to "pay me for my services?"
For example, famous people aren't they worth more than us everyday folks because they can charge several $100,000 for an hour of their prescencr?
heck, there are some folks out there who get paid several MILLION for an hour of their prescence.
Are they really any better of a human being than you are just because they got to be famous? (Especially the folks who got famous just bc they happens to marry the right person who then helped them to become famous?)
Is it just because they are famous?
I mean, maybe some cases, but I think (or would like to think) that it is bc in most cases they showed they had some skill or knowledge or showing of kindness about them that helped them to become so famous.
It is about the value they added to other people's lives.
Well how did they add this value?
They added value by sharing some sort of insights into life that helped someone else to improve their own lives.
That helped someone to become a better them.
Some special hint or tidbit of knowledge that helped someone else to feel more confident in themselves or treasure themselves better.
And so what value can I do for you?
Well, that just it.. I CAN help you love yourself a little bit more, a little bit better.
I can help you love yourself a little bit more.
If you will let me?
But HOW?
With magic. With my love.
Well how did they other people do it?
Did they have some bit of knowledge that made themselves better than anyone else? Well, yes, some of them did.
They knew some nlp words or some hypnotism words or some knowledge about money tips or educational tips that others might not have come across yet.
They might have some mental retraining tips that you hadnt come across yet. Or that you had come across millions of times before but then it finally hit home for you when they said it.
You couldn't process it or hear it until you had heard it from THAT person.
Sometimes you can hear the same advice a million times over from millions of people but then one person says that same bit of information and all of a sudden, it just clicks.
And that is why you should keep putting yourself out there bc you might just be someone's someone.
That's what I want to be for you.
I want to be that someone for you who says that message and it just clicks for you.
I want to be your someone whom you hear that same message that you heard from everybody else that has already been telling you that same message but when you finally hear it from me,
it just suddenly klicks for you.
One thing that really helps a lot of those famous people, is that they have all have already gone through all of that internal hard work on their own. So they know how hard it is for you, bc they have been there done that.
But here is the thing: Have they really mastered it so much that they never have to deal with another moment of doubt fear or shame? No. They still have to deal with the feelings just as much as you and I. They are still just as much splat in the middle of their own journey , just as much as you and I are.
Just because they had moments of enlightmemt and have done lots of amazing internal work, doesn't mean they are done and they are all cured.
Every dam day of their lives,
they still have to KEEP doing the internal work, -- they still have to keep using the internal tools to keep themselves connected and confident and able to be there for others.
It's not like that doubt and fears just suddenly one day disappear and never come back. Those thoughts of fear and doubt... They haunt.. even the best of the best of souls.
It's just that many of these famous folks have just gotten better and better at practicing the tools and tricks of helping them to overcome or convert those negative thoughts into thoughts of joy and celebration and compassion or to their advantage.
There is a famous saying/philosophy in the permaculture community :
turn your problems into the solutions
Make your problem into something that helps provide a solution.
Turn your problems into an advantage!!
Make your problems become something useful!
My favorite description of this is a cartoon of a person in the desert with a leaky water carrier so that by the time he gets home he only has half the water. So, the way he turns the problem into a solution : is that along the path where the water is dripping out, he plants seeds of edible plants
and along that path, edible plants grow and then he now has access to lots of fresh food along his path.
In a way, that's a lot of what many of those famous people did.
They took their fears and doubts and overcame it and then shared their overcoming it with others.
They learned from people before them
and then continued to share what they learned..
They just continued the process of sharing with the next person.
That's what I would like to be allowed to do with you.
Share all what I have learned and come across with you . All the tips and ideas that helped me and help you.
And I would like to be paid for that?
Lol, yes.
and then the whole cyclic loop begins again of .. why should I be paid for helping you?
Thats where I get stuck..
You see for years.. and I mean for YEARS, for decades in fact, I used to give away back massages and bodymind sessions for free.
I was told I had a talent unlike any others in my skills and my abilities.
But although occasionally people insisted I get paid, I would rarely ask for anything in return having just been excited that I had been appreciated for a moment.
I was too afraid to ask for money bc it was more important to me that I just be allowed to connect to people through touch. I didn't like or didn't feel comfortable connecting to people outside of touch .. so being allowed to give back massages was how I felt comfortable being at a party.. I got an ego kick by having a waiting list of people of folks who wanted back massages from me at the party. I felt useful.
A part of me was ignorant that I should have been charging people for my time and energy.
A part of me was terrified that if I did charge people that then no one would then want a massage from me and then I would have to realize that I wasn't actually accepted for me just being me.
A part of me was terrified that if I did charge people for my skills that God would strike me down and take my skills.
***Small interruption in writing this -- see below to see that interruption..****
I also later learned , much to my chagrin, that it was just as well that I never charged folks for my millions of massages -- bc it turns out that it is actually illegal to do so, - ie, to ask for money for massages unless you are legally certified and have a specific license in most states. ( You can see my YouTube video with my rant and rave about that concept on one of my body listening YouTube channels)
But just imagine, if I had asked for money and/or if I had gotten money, can you imagine how wealthy I would be by now?
Now that I have some sort of business sense that I apparently never had before, the very least of what I should have done all those years ago would have been to have at the very least have made sure each one of those people be required to leave a review in a notebook of some kind (as we did not have the internet or concepts of websites back then.. yes I am THAT old) of what they thought of the massage.
Who cares that we didn't have the internet, I could have at kept a notebook with me and say the requirement or payment was just that they leave SOME kind of written feedback of what they thought of the massage.
Lol, yes, if I could go back in time, that is probably the one useful thing I would have done really really different in my life :: Ask people to write reviews at the time of what they thought of my massages back then.
So I could at least have a notebook of reviews to show for myself.
Then I tell myself , "well, krinet, can't you just go back and find those people and get them to give you reviews?". Lol, well, no, not for most of the hundreds of folks I massaged at all those parties bc I probably never even knew most of their names. Well that's a shame.
Folks , Learn peoples names!!. ( That's definitely an area I keep trying to work on bc it's definitely one of my problems areas.)
I will share a story of just how much difficulty with people's names I have. ::
One time I had this really good friend in college named Steven (or was it David or was it Greg or something else.sigh Haha, I still can't even remember)(wait now that I think about it, it was vice versa) .. but point was, I knew his name for two years or some xyz amount of time. and then one summer break or school break of some kind...we came back , and for two whole weeks( or was it months.. maybe it was only for two whole days, the details are fuzzy now, but whatever length of time it was), I apparently remembered his name wrong and was calling this other name.
And for the two whole weeks (I am fairly certain it was two whole weeks) , this guy just let me call him that name.
And then finally one day, I think it was someone else or maybe it was himself, finally asked me why was I calling him this other name.. ohp.
Now I remember,it was himself that asked me bc I remember that my answer was " bc that's your name.... Steve(n) (correct name installed).. ".
Yeap, I'm bad with names.
Apparently I am even worse with time details as my sharing this story proves ..
Sigh sorry. Apologies
Anyway, random story
...
Oh hey, by the way, here are those thoughts earlier that I got interrupted with for moment up there earlier in the blog post.
that *****Interesting interruption from above::::
(Interesting - Interrupting this message for a minute to tell you that I love you..
mom just came into room to let me know she was up and awake.. and after I poured the energy from me into her telling her that 'I love her' and sharing how much love I had for her being with my voice ..after doing this for her , I had an excess of love and caring in me and I pass it on to you.
I love you.
And appreciate you just for reading these words I have shared with the world..
I do not take you, the reader, for granted and I sincerely hope you do not take this love I have for you for granted either.
...
By the way, another side thought..
something to think about that is interesting about people's autobiographies (that people pay so much money to read), those autobiographies
- its really just them journal writing and writing down the lessons they learned in life .... and perhaps having it be edited some... and proof read... and then compiled together ...and printed for you to read in the comfort of your bed.
You pay $30 for a hardcover copy for that book.
So do not be afraid to take your journal and share it with the world.
Do not be afraid to share your thoughts with the world.
Hmm I think that message is half for myself as it is for you.
What those other people did .. they shared.
They produced something for others to experience and share in.
Their music, their art, their love, their writing.
Writing stream of conscious - that's what I am good at. Or at least that is what I enjoy doing.
I so hope someone else benefits from my writing.
(I pray for that:: That somehow my sharing of myself helps SOMEONE else out there. And that I want that someone to be you.)
Please please if my sharing this in someone way helped you,.could you also share it with others as well so that maybe it might them as well?
..
I also pray and pray and pray
that we can convince at least 100,000 people in the next three months that our family is worth helping out to give at least $10 to to help us save our home.
Because in theory we only have until January 2026 to come up with $700,000 to buy back our home or we will get kicked out.
And my poor mom with massive dementia, but enough awareness to know that she is still in the home that is special to our family. -- that will kill her or at least destroy what is left of her.
So I plead out into the universe
please , please, help us to raise up enough money to save/buy back our home.. please
at the very least : please help us to raise up 700k.. please.
Because, if we could please just get 100,000 of you to at least give us $10 by Jan 2026, (preferably by end of Dec 2025) ,
then we might just have a chance of not only saving our home and buying it back.but also of saving a couple of other lots and maybe getting a couple of other debts and bills paid off that started to grow while we were dealing with the stress of my ex selling our home off to some stranger who now wants to kick us out of our family's home instead of just giving it back to our family whom he bought our home from.
Please reader, we beg you for your help with this..
And if you could bring it past your heart to give us more than $10 ,
but rather to give us several thousand if you have enough of it, then maybe just maybe we could raise up far more....
Because our even bigger dream is that if we could somehow miraculously raise up a whole 5 million, do you know how many people we could help with that money???
Not only could we save our own home and save some other lots as well
but with 5million we could create so many many nodes of small urban food forests strategically throughout the city for folks in food deserts and in need.
We could provide so much education for others in the cities of how to have access to fresh food right within the city walls without having to leave the city to find it.
We could make sure each person who is willing to let us will have have access to at least some simple greens , no matter whether they live in an apartment, or a home or even if they are homesless..
Oh but please please please please,.going back to immediate emergency::
Please please at the very least please help us to raise up at least 700k
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I love you. Like seriously, I really love you for allowing me to share all these thoughts with you.
See, that's why it's hard for me to ask for money for whatever my share of myself..
bc I think its just a freaking amazing gift that you even ALLOWED me to share a little bit of myself with you.
How could I ask for anything more bc for me technically its enough that you let me just simply share some thoughts with you. ?
Your prescence, your time, your energy that went into reading all these thoughts - this stream of conscious that I was just sharing with you.. that is a gift you just gave me.
You, your prescence is way more than enough in life for my precious little ego...
But the reality is, we need finances to survive in this world.
And financial sharing.. financial payment, financial gifts are in fact just another form and expression of love ...
And we really need for you to express your love in a financial way.
So please, if you please help us save our home by end of Dec2025 and if you could please help us raise up 700k by then with whatever donation you can spare and if you could please please help us find 100,000 other people to helps us as well, we would be ever so appreciative.
Thank you.
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Nov 3, 2025
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